Tuesday, September 27, 2011

Happy Birthday Papa !

da lame Abah pergi tinggalkan along & yg lain.
mcm bru semalam tgk Abah dgn Amal senyum2 & gelak2 dgn kami.

hari neh bufday Abah :)
along rindu sgt dgn Abah ;(


herm. along bknnye jenis ngadu tp along nk sgt mngadu kt Abah about a lot of things.
it's been hard living every day without u & Amal.
walopn kitorg x ckp byk psl neh & try to remmber only d fun & happy memories we had together. . .
it still pains us to d core, Pa.

rumah plak exactly d same like it used to b despite d little bit of changes here n there.
along kdg2 mngharap to see u come bck frm work and Amal frm school.
tp i noe, i won't see that anymore.

i missed u both so much til ma heart breaks.
even rite nw, i'm still fighting bck d tears.
Ya Allah lindungilah mereka dr azab. peliharalah mereka.
Ya Allah, jika aku layak ke syurgaMu. . .izinkn aku menunggu tuk brsame2 brjln ke pintu syurga brsame ahli keluarga ku.
amin.


Abah ! Amal !
along rindu sgt.
it makes me more hurt coz Mama xde kt sini.
along sedih sbb Mama slalu ade whenever our birthdays coming soon die ade tp nw ?
along merungut ek ?
aha. mmg along merungut.
sbb Mama xde kat sini.

biarlah along nk dengki cam budak2.
sbb slame ni along x pnh nk buat cam budak2.
tp bile dpkkn balik, xpelah. along redha.
asalkn Mama happy.

xpelah Pa. . . Mal.
along sedekahkn bacaan along ngaji ye nnti ^^
harap dpt memudahkn Abah dgn Amal kt sane :)


Happy Birthday Pa :*








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Sunday, September 25, 2011

bile da xleh nk bendung lagi =.="

haih~
x jadi gak aku nk tdo =.="

psl per ?

tetibe jek mood jiwang.wahahahaha~

nothing actually. juz suddenly there's a surge of powerful emotions slowly surfacing from within :)

i dunno why. i dun even noe hw it gets so powerful.

lagu plak cambest je kn =.=" lgi ah menyemarakkn lagi perasaan yg agak dormant neh =.="




fuhh~
why ?

i dunno.
i tried to ignore whenever this kind of feeling comes back attacking.
and whenever i did, i couldn't help but missing d person who gives me dis kind of feelings.
weird =..=" *hembuskuat²*

sometyms, i couldn't help to flash back all d memories that i had with dat person.
the way he laughs, the way he looks at me, the way he smiles, the way his voice sounds like. . .everything about him that i could remember.

semalam mase tgk wayang, ade some part si Shaheizy neh buat mengingatkn aku kt die.
i even said to Mdm which part ! ;p
part bile die mngomel manje kt watak Yana tym die ade family gathering for die nyer company.
hembus² through d nostrils dgn comelnye. . .sore yg dibudak-budakkn ;p
seriously, aku tringt die.
mase tuh, aku trgamam sekejap. *smbil admire Shaheizy sbb die sgguh comel tym tuh.haha !*

when did i see that kind of behaviour ?
almost 4yrs ago. when he was juz right next to me, always.
bile tringt, hny Allah je yg tahu betapa trkedunye aku tgk babak tuh lam wayang.
Ya Allah, rindunye aku kt manusia tuh.
hati aku neh, cam ade org genggam slow². . .saje bg aku sesak.

aiyaa. . . =.="





fuhhhh~
amek nafas dlm². . .lepassss~
kurangkn sket rase saket dlm hati aku skrng neh.
aku tataw nape aku rindu sgt kt manusia neh =.="
hadoi la Mohammad Najib. =.="
why is it you whom i so missed ?
why ? =.="

tell me how can i erase u ?
tell me how can i get on with my life without having to remember u ?
tell me how can i love another again ?

. . .


it's weird. frustrating even.
why am i in this kind of situation anyway ? =.="

kenape aku rindu sgt pd manusia yg aku x ptut rindu ?
kenape aku masih cintakn manusia yg aku x ptut cinta ?
kenape aku masih sayangkn manusia yg aku x ptut sayang ?
MELAMPAU plak tuh =.="
over gile smpai rase cam dada neh sesak sgt sbb ade prasaan ini for this person.



ye. kdg² aku brtny kpd diri aku sndiri - y can't i have him ?
kire kes x puas ati =.="
walopn aku kate yg aku da melepaskn, my actions ?
huhu~ who am i fooling anyway ? =.="

perasaan ini, walopn aku nk delete camne pn. . .aku marah camne pn. . .aku geram camne pn. . .
hati aku tetap kalah dgn cinta, rindu + syg yg aku ade utk manusia yg ini.



can somebody pls help me erase all these feelings ?
pls. . .help me forget.
sbb aku rase cam x mmpu nk tolak die jauh² dr hati aku walopn secare fizikalnye aku mmg beratus km jauh drpd die.
Alhamdulillah aku jauhhhh drpd die :p
kalo die kt dpn mate aku, aku blagak gagah pehtu lari cepat² then nanes :|
ouh patheticnye =.="

betape sedihnye sbb aku x bleh lagi memegang erat manusia yg aku xbleh nk capai.
eventhough i wanna say that i have a chance IF i wanted but my pride makes me stand firm.
eventhough i wanna shout out loud that i love him but my pride won't let me.



hak org is hak org. walopn org yg brade disamping die merampas die drpd aku dlu =.="
melainkn, there'll be a twist of fate ;p
nahhh~ sumenye ketentuan Allah.

papehal, i'll pray for d best and let's juz wait and see it through all the way in the end :)




amin.











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tgk wayang pt 2 [24Sept2011]

continuation :

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*tiket TGV MesraMall, Kerteh ♥


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*oke~ posing jap ! ;p


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*haha ! Ms.Ecah beli smpai 3combo.trkejut skjap =.=" rupe² nye Ms.Ecah beli extra for us ;p haha !


venue : TGV MesraMall, Kerteh, Terengganu.
occasion : watch - Bini-biniku Gengster @ 1725.

comments on d movie : best ! abes saket perut aku gelak :p hahaha ! BUT, points may differ between people. so i suggest u guys have to watch it on ur own ;p hehe~



done watching, kitorg pegi ah bkk pose kt PizzaHut ^^ wah~! mmg dream comes true ah ! heheee~
trserempak gak dgn Angah Edy wif d gang. woops~ =.=" rupenye kitorg one house.haha !

oke ah. nk smbung tdo ^^

solat subuh then, dushhhh~ off to bed. have to get a bit of sleep so that i could drive Mdm to Kuantan Airport later.huhu~


bye~

salam.








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tgk wayang pt 1 [24Sept2011]

wahaha !

salam + good morning ;)

what'll i post up for today ? *thinking*

aha~!

i guess i better post up what i did yesterday with my family ;p

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oke !

yesterday, tetibe Mdm ajak g tgk wayang ;p
tp memandangkn aku + Mdm brpose, kitorg xde ah mkn brunch melainkn 3yg len ;p haha !

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*menunggu d trio to order food.


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*OwnerBlog.haha ! ye, wa taw.wa control cute =.=" demmit ! jrg oke wa nk tunjuk muke =.="


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*Ms.Ecah + Ms.Fiffy; chow time ! Ms.Farah hilang membeli air ;p




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Saturday, September 24, 2011

done !

ngaa~
puteh je aku tgk blog aku neh.tenang sket jiwa wa~
wahahahaha~!


oke ah. =.="

da update per yg ptut.

tym tuk tdo smula ;p
mato da berat da neh.

ngaa~


out ! salam ;p























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picca : Wedding Kak Nurul pt 2

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*the Bride; Kak Nurul


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*the Bride + Groom.


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*kat pelamin suda.


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*siap kompang ! besh gak ah performance diorg ^^


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*ma family wif the newly weds.




huhu !
aku sbnrnye da xde mood.tuh psl muke camtu =.=" xleh nk senyum.
pasal per ?
ade ah. atas sebab² trtentu.aku da tencen jd maw balik suda.
haish~ =.="

papehal, ok la.no further comment.at least aku + family tunjuk gak muke kn.itu yg penting =D lalala~



little notes : wa malas layan manusia yg ske majok x tentu psl =.=" kire bgus ah wa + family nk dtg er ? nk ikutkn, wa da malas nk jejak kg.tp dsbbkn wa dididik dgn baik oleh Arwah Abah wa - kite dijemput. . .jd x bek kalo x dtg.Alhamdulillah, wa pegang kate Abah wa =.=" astaghfirullahal'azim~









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picca : Wedding Kak Nurul pt 1

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*kami =D


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*Mak Itam [Mdm] wif Along Ira, Along Hana + Faqihah


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*for so many years, dis is d 1st tym kitorg amek pic same² ^^


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*Mak Itam wif anak².ramaiii~ haha !


venue : Perkarangan rumah Mak Andak + family @ Masjid Tanah, Melaka.
date : 16Sept2011
occasion : Nikah + Sanding.










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picca : Syawal 1432H pt 2

continuation :

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*Ms.Fiffy, Mdm, Ms.Ecah + Ms.Farah ♥


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*Mereka ;p haha !


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*babai ! da puas jln² ^^ walopn makcik Farah nk men =.="


haha ! abes da ;p
memandangkn kitorg dtg hny tuk merehatkn bdn yg letih sbb a very long trip frm kg.
so, x men sgt ah kt sane =) sempat men kt Snow World je ^^

eh =.=" aku lupe sesuatu. alaaaa~ pic kt kg ! demm =.=" post next !









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picca : Syawal 1432H pt 1

ok !

i'm gonna post pics frm ma trip spnjg bln Syawal neh ;p

ngaa~ tp x ikut turutan la ;p
dun mind ! i'll post up d tarikh as well ^^ ngee~

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*baby Najjah wif Mdm :) 17Sept2011


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*baby Najjah wif Mommy El :) 17Sept2011


venue : Desa Pinggiran Putra, Putrajaya
date : 17 September 2011
occasion : Open House, Menyambut Baby + Farewell to El.


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* Ms. Ecah wif OwnerBlog @ Genting =D


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*Mdm wif Ms. Farah ^^


venue : Hotel Seri Malaysia, Genting Highlands.
date : 17 September 2011

kitorg sbnrnye da letih.bgn plak tuh awal² =.="
so, dsbbkn mngantuk sgt. . .saye cadangkn kpd Mdm - 'Apa kata. . . ?' haha !
tuh psl end up kt Genting ;p lalalala~

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ngaa~

hey ! salam ;p

huh !

so many things to post up but 1st, i'll juz do mane yg trmmpu. wahahaha~ *gelaksengal*

okeh. . .sambil browse things on d net, i'll juz think of a good thing to post up ;p

lalala~

later !



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Sunday, September 18, 2011

adeyh =.="

erm.
sumtyms i felt lyk it isn't fair for myself.

why ? what ?

huh~
unfair because he can easily update himself things happening to me.
unfair because he can easily reassure himself how are my feelings for him.

as for myself ?
how can i know things about him and what are his feelings for me ?
xde. =.="

so, die bleh dtg kt tmpt neh and see for himself d things yg trjadi dlm hidup aku.
walopn aku x ceritakan semua tp ade la sket lobang for him to view a bit of ma lyf.

die ?
i can't possibly find any source to know d things happening in his lyf or juz simply ape yg ade lam hutak die at dat tym.
haih~!

x aci er ? =.="
tuh psal aku ske la nk delete blog aku neh kdg2 =.="
aku rase x puas hati. heh~ =.="

ouh x aci x aci =.="
dat's y ah aku mcm kepingin sgt nk mndengar dr mulut die sndiri how he felt or juz update me wif things going on wif his lyf.



tp er. . .
itu dulu. mase aku dgn die masih an item :)
even nw pn, aku rase cm nk delete je blog aku coz it's unfair for me.
unfair for me coz i dunno a single thing happening dlm idop die or ape yg die hadapi dlm hutak die.
bknnye aku NAK sangat tahu tp it's nice to noe certain thing abt wat's going on wif ur loved one's lyf.
is he missing me lyk d way i'm missing him ?
is his heart wanting me as much as mine wanting him too ?
is he feeling empty lyk d way i'm feeling empty too ?


is it too much for me to noe all those things ?
especially yg ade kaitan dgn aku.
salah ke aku ?
huhuhu~






little notes : ouh kerinduan yg melampau kpd dak kecik. gile aku neh =.=" rindu rindu. demm !




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rindu. like crazy.

rindu.

huh~
nape aku rindu sgt kt die neh ?
aku rindu suara die.
aku rindu muke die.
aku rindu nk men rmbut die.
aku rindu gelaktawa die.
aku rindu lawakbodo die.
aku rindu nak bersama dgn die.


pendek cite, i miss everything about him *sigh*

i wish he is here with me nw ;(
been missing him like crazy.






huh~ *heavy sigh*






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Thursday, September 15, 2011

bro ! wa rindu lu ah :(

miss ma boy soooooooooo much !!
huh~
i wish him to b here, cuddling, goofing around n juz b together.




miss him so much !!!!!
arghhhh !
aku dpt laki neh mmg aku geget2 je ;p hahaha !


love him so much !



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Sunday, September 11, 2011

heavy heart + heavy sighs = missing someone

I can be tough I can be strong
But with you, it’s not like that at all
There’s a girl that gives a shit
Behind this wall you just walk through it

And I remember all those crazy things you said
You left them running through my head
All those crazy things we did
Didn’t think about it just went with it
You’re always there, you’re everywhere
But right now I wish you were here

Damn Damn Damn what I’d do to have you here.
Damn Damn Damn what I'd do to have you near.

I love the way you are
It’s who I am
Don’t have to try hard
We always say it like this
And the truth, is that i really miss

No ! I don’t want to let go
I just wanna let you know
That I never wanna let go . . .


by, Avril Lavigne - Wish You Were Here ♥


sigh~


little notes : whenever dat tym comes, i will miss you like crazy.damn !




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all i want is an apology.

huh~

it's been years since that day where i had to take ma own way + he, his :)
along d journey, nvr did once i tried to push those memories away frm ma head.
it's hard.
at some point, i couldn't push it out anymore.
those memories were so deeply engraved in ma soul.

huh~


kdg², aku rimas.rimas dgn segala ingatan aku ttg seorg manusia neh.
seorg manusia yg mmg selame neh, aku cube tuk menolak kuar drpd hati + palahutak aku =.="

tell me why it's so hard ?
have u experience d same thing as i am ?

huh~
2ari lepas, [kot. . .x hengat] aku kemaskn brg² dlm almari baju aku.
trjmpe ma old diaries; book seven. [pergh ! byk =.=" currently, i'm doing 10 =D wahaha !]
citer thn 2008.thn yg byk berikn aku kenangan yg best ttg seorg manusia neh =)

suku trakhir 2008, 1st tym aku jmpe die rase nye *thinks back*
aku masih ingt camne brdebarnye jantung aku, betapa kecutnye perut aku bile die buat keputusan tuk brjmpe dgn aku.
tym tuh, aku tgh study lagi.
it was so nerve-recking.tiap² detik aku menunggu slps trime sms drpd die yg mnyatakan die bru lepas dr tol =.=" made ma heart + segala isi perut aku twist =.="
even telling dis makes ma stomach quiver =.=" darn !

then, after telling him d instructions on hw to come at ma place. . .
there he was.
kete kaler kunen ;p
aku nye glabah Tuhan je yg tahu :-s
kalo bleh nk kecikkn diri cam citer "Honey ! I shrunk the kids" pn jadi la :))
aku mmg xmo brdepan dgn manusia yg aku cinta, aku rindu neh.pelik er ? ;p
walopn tym tuh, suda 3thn kami brsame tp dat was d 1st tym we met after all those years of fighting, quarreling, loving, missing + compromising with each other ;p
ahaks !





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Saturday, September 10, 2011

!@#$%^&*() - darn !!!

arghhhhhhhhhhhh~!! ~x(















i hate it when i'm so hungry =.=" darn dis period =.="
i feel like i could eat whole =.=" haha !



darn dis mega cravings TT______TT ouh hw it made me suffer =.="




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Thursday, September 08, 2011

zZz~ . . .

erm.
salam + morning :)


wat did i do yesterday ?
ouh ye ;)
mnghantar Mdm g airport kt kuantan.she'll b going to singapore for a few days ;)

huhu.
well, it had been 2days straight i couldnt get enough sleep bt today, alhamdulillah i did ! ^^ superhappy !

well, bknnye ape ;p melayan my favourite ppl online kt fb je ;p wahahahaha~
i was happy even til nw, i still am =)


thnx for making ma day so bright + cheery u guys ;p


well, nothing to report anyway.


lalala~



men gem ah ^^ out ! salam.




little notes : i won't let anything hurt me today :) mereka kalo x puas ati dgn wa, tny wa la weh. xyah sindir², xyah use d 3rd person sentence to me la weh. x puas ati dgn wa or care wa idop kt ats bumi Allah neh, lu bgtau wa la. ma life is not a show for u to enjoy on popcorns + soft drinks then rate it.
being egoistic + cynical are typical human beings' traits =.=" tp lu x sedar yg wat u said too will come back at u 10x fold ;p just saying. lalala~





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Sunday, September 04, 2011

after 3yrs. . . still so demm hard.

herm.

hari neh 6 Syawal 1432H, tol ?
d day he asked me d question :)
kalo nk diikutkn, suda 6thn ia brlaku :)
d day that we were officially an item, 6yrs ago.
i still rmmber hw u asked me to b urs n where i was on dat day :)
it was d happiest day for me. to finally having someone i could give all my love to, someone that i could call 'mine' .

nw, after 6yrs.
looked at myself. i still couldnt forget u after 3yrs we each took our own way.
eventhough we carried on with our lives but i still fail to forget abt u *sigh*
why am i like this, a question i couldnt answer.
why am i still having these endless dreams abt u ?
why am i still having these feelings that i know i shouldnt for u ?
why ? *sigh*

sometyms, through all these years i kept on saying to myself that i should stop all this.
i should try harder to delete ur face. . .ur voice. . .ur perfume. . .
but whenever i tried, there will always a way for ur memories to come back rushing to me like a hurricane.

sometyms, i analysed certain scenarios inside my head that i noe will nvr EVER happen in reality.
a scene where i could have u in ma arms again or something like that *sigh*

after all those painstaking flashbacks, i wondered to myself whether YOU had the same thing happening too.
have you agonized as much as i did ?
have ur heart tried to kill you juz by a flash of my face comes into mind ?
i dunno.








little notes : updates on 25Sept2011; bru wa pasan, read more link suda rosak =.=" entri neh sbnrnye terAMATlah panjang =.=" tetibe bile nk read balik, aikkk?? link rosak =.=" demmit ! trpakse ah buang link tuh n lost half of dis entry.aisehmennn~ =.=" bru nk mood jiwang.putun stim ahhhh~!




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zzz.


aaaaaaaa~












rindu :|










sekian. terima kasih.



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ouh nk baby. . .

thn neh ramai bona bg wa kad nikah =.="
thn neh gak, ramai bona mmber² wa jd parents =.="



aiyoyoyoooo~

wa bile la plak maw ade partner buat bby neh ? =.=" wahahahaha~


ok. i tau i merepek skrng neh.
tp x bleh gak nk ignore. umur i neh sgt sesuai suda tuk mnjadi isteri + mak org neh =.="


ayoooooooooooooooo~



bile la Adam wa nk smpai neh *menungsorang²*






little notes : wa sbnrnye trnmpk pic mmber wa suda ade bby. beshnye ! ;( wa bile laie weh TT_____TT



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Saturday, September 03, 2011

rindu.


huhhhh~
wa da bbrape ari da asyik trmmpi lu, tringt lu ;(
wa rindu sgt2 dgn lu ;(
balik la pd wa ;(
huhhhh~
hari raye patutnye happy tp cmne wa nk happy ? ;(
mdm asyik tny psl lu, wa hny mmpu kate - sabar eh; smbil senyum.
uhuk uhuk uhuk. . .
wa rinduuuu ;(
cepatla kembali pd wa ;(



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