Sunday, February 28, 2010

alaa T_T

betul aku x nmpk pape =.=" walopon da baper minit suda brlalu T_T





haish.sumthing wrong dgn internet conction ka atau bnde lain?




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why er ?

err...

aku xleh nmpk followers aku.kenapa er ?
musykil musykil.




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ye ye !

yesh !
brjaya menambah sesuatu ! wahahaha.
nnti maw tuko layout lak.maw kaler itam.akekeke ^^




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nk tuko layout ah.

semase blogwalking, ade satu perasaan timbul.

aku nk update layout blog ah =.="
tp aku maleh =.="
jadi?

nk tny cik ieda ah camne die wat layout dgn begitu berjayanya la.


haish~ cik azura oh cik azura.kenapa kamo sgguh pemalas. =.="




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suda setahun. . .

hari neh, genap 1thn mereka pergi.
AlFatihah buat mereka.


rindu Abah.rindu Amal.




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Saturday, February 27, 2010

today in history...

today is ?
27feb2010.

collectiong d memories a yr ago.
on d same date.
that is d only day that i spent wif ma boys.
d only full day i could hold on to them for d longest.
that day when i felt a huge urge to spent d nite wif them together.
hw i wished i did wat i wanted to do.
bt that had past n will nvr come back for me eventhough i plead as much as i wanted to.

that day wont come back for me.ever.


eventhough it was, i was happy.
eventhough it broke ma heart to dust, i was happy.
for i was d last person seeing them smile as sweet as i could rmmber.
i was d last person seeing them happy to go on for a ride wif a good cause.
i was d last person hearing their happy voices, laughing, joking wif each other that seems to fade every step their taking.dun have a clue that was d last day we will see each other.
breathing.alive.


like lightning.it happened so fast.so absurd like a joke.
bt it happened all d same.

i was d 1st to noe.
and it took a lot of air to fill ma lungs that were starting to crump inside ma chest.

it was a sad day.yet, it got this kind of a tingling feeling of happiness in d end.
at least, they wont have to deal wif d world anymore.
at least, they wont have to face unnecessary things anymore.
Allah loves them more than we do.
only He knows the reason.
i put ma trust in that.
i believe they are better off frm this world.

there are pros + contras to anything.
pro, it's lonely without them.
contra, have faith.one day i'll see them again :)


one day.
i'll see them again.


esok genap 1thn mereka meninggalkn kami.
AlFatihah kepada Idris bin Yusop + Mohd Ikhmal Hisham bin Idris.
sm0ga mereka dtempatkn di antara org² yg beriman disisi Allah swt.
amin.




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aku da tataw nk watpe ari neh =.="

ehek.
buhsan.
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sekian.




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Friday, February 26, 2010

B.O.D.O.H = KAU...SEKIAN.

haish. (-.-)=3

hw i wished i am telepathic lyk that vampire guy in twilight *serious aku da lupo name die =.=" ahaha =))*

why??

so that i could see wat lies beneath those pretty faces that passes me by.those pretty masks they put on to cover the truth within their hearts.

do this, wrong.do that, also wrong.haish~
then what am i supposed to do to make sum1 feel that loving sum1 is not a game of pretending.
doesn't matter whether that person is ur family or ur friends.a group of ppl that are important to u.

i dun PRETEND to love a person.i never have.
love dun need a reason.
pretending to care is LOW ! hw abt pretending to love? EXTREMELY LOW !!
i think i'm not a hypocrite on that when i do love sum1 especially that involves family.
i show them i do care.i show them i do love.
it's not hard for me to show ma feelings to the ones dear to me.
eventhough i'm gud in pretending bt things that has to do wif emotions + bonds between ppl are sumthing i nvr wanted to hide.
those are real emotions.those aren't acting at all.

bullshit la if there is sum1 out there juz pretend to love + to care for the ones who waste a LOT of time, money, blood + sweat to grow them up regardless of anything.
org mcm tuh ptut g mati je =.="
x peka langsung dgn prasaan sekumpulan manusia yg Allah anugerahkn kpd die yg menyayangi die tnpa kira pape pn walopon prangai cam BABI. :|

*sorry for d vulgar words.aku mmg marah gile babi neh*


ade manusia tuh, umo je da tua tp otak cam bebudak :|
agak² bleh hidup sensorg lam dunia neh, silakn ah.
tade sape pn mnghalang.
aku paling bosan dgn manusia jenis xde sense lam pala hutak cam neh.
aku meluat.aku rase cam nk sepak jek.
bile marah, langsung x pk d actions + words yg sudah dluahkn tuh ade effect kt org len.
bodoh.
suwoh blaja leklok xmo.bebal. =.="
saje nk bg aku maki² =.=" cam gampang prangai.


Astaghfirullah.sabar².

Ya Allah ! kuatkn semangat aku.kuatkn iman aku.tingkatkn kesabaran aku.
jgn smpai aku blasah budak tuh smpai masok spital suda.amin.


hmph !




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sampai hati :|

sedih ah.tuh je aku nk taip bleh?

malas aku nk elaborate.serious.

trase cam kna baling kt dinding.berpusing² pala aku.

aku rase aku da buat yg trbaik dan aku x pnh minta pape pn.tp ini yg die rase psal aku + yg lelain lam kuarge aku.

smpai hati kamo buat along camni :)
smpai hati.




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Thursday, February 25, 2010

nuffy = sleeping beauty = geram² =.="

haish =.="
tuh psl aku xmo tgk pn nuff tuh =.="
da jd sleeping beauty lak nuffies kt blog aku neh *tarik rmbut*

isk isk isk =.="
geram.


da ah.men happy aquarium laie bgus. =.="




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Wednesday, February 24, 2010

jum tido !

mata aku da pedih ah >.<
tdo jum.

selamat malam.
assalamualaikum.




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wah ! betul ka neh ??

ahaks !
nmpk sgt aku da maleh nk menjenguk itu nuffy.kehkehkeh.
agak trkejut bile akhirnye ade sumthing ^^

perasaan ?

amat suka !!
hikhikhik.
segala penat lelah men-klik nuff d blog strangers, ade la sumthing as a start.Alhamdulillah !
kihkih.
cam x caye je.betul ka neh??






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Monday, February 22, 2010

per aku da buat neh !!

okeh.
hari neh ?
pegi tgk wayang kt EastCoastMall@Kuantan.
tgk wayang per ?

The Wolfman.ehek.

komen ?

citer agak best.surprise elements ? GILE aku tgk citer tuh mmg trlompat².hahahahaha.

ape laie aku buat =.="

aha !
beli kekasih idaman~!! ^^ eheeee~ sgguh happy x trkire !

apo laie er =.="

happy hours spent wif family !

tuh yg plg important.ngee~

okeh ah.ngntok.


tata.




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Sunday, February 21, 2010

semalam kn...

citer semalam er.

okeh.

semalam, mase kt foodcourt kn..tetibe mama suwoh pusingkn pala, tgk pelan2 manusia kt blakang kami.

saye pn pusingkn pala dgn slow n steadynye.

"Eh ! Bapak aku !" . . .

saye trjerit.nasib baik volume dijaga.akekekeke.


mama trsenyum tgk reaksi saye sambil mnghirup sup dr meehoon sup beliau.

pakcik tuh, ade angle cam abah saye.walopon taw x mngkin ada lagi org yg serupa dgn abah tp pakcik tuh ade angle sejibik cam abah saye.

hati saye brbunge2 tgk pakcik tuh.pakcik tuh melayan anak kecik die moody, mnjerit2.sian.haish.

pakcik tuh trtonggeng2 layan anak pmpn die.hehe.
mama kate, abah ade that d same patience as that pakcik.
kihkihkih.saye trsenyum :)

side view pakcik tuh mmg sejibik cam abah.bile face2face, cam pak ucu.hehehe.

da name pn adek bradek.ade la iras2 sket cam muke abah pakcik aku yg itu.hehehe.


Thank you !
for letting me see sum1 as close as resemblance to ma Abah like that pakcik.
trubat la juge hati neh dr rindu.

saye + family balik dgn senyuman.


eheh.tamat.



**jari jemari blah kiri aku sbnrnye menanggung kesakitan.amat sakit.buang tebiat goreng gitar.akekeke.suda lame x men itu pakwe.lgpn, aku mngntok.curi2 pkai adik aku nye notebook.akekekeke.shhh~~~




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Friday, February 19, 2010

i wish i could b a powerpuff girl...

i dream of doing things impossible..
i dream of having things on ma own..
i dream of things that ppl might think, "hey, can she do it?"

yup!
dreaming a lot of things..
i dream big for a puny human like myself :D

bt it's not a sin to have big dreams.

i hate when ppl expect things from me.if it's good, then it's alright.what if it's not?

hmph.humans.wat can they do but being judgemental over things.right?

that's y i HATE being the one to give the verdict about someone.i dun like judging ppl.i rather trust them than being that way.
bt do others having d same piece of mind as i am?
or i'm juz another hypocrite? juz not realizing it when i'm being one.

dunno.

bt all i want them to know is...

HEY! I'M JUST ME! WHAT'S WITH D PRESSURES??!!

bt then again, i think about it.why there are ppl pressuring me like this? =.="

maybe they feel insecure about sumthing.they juz need sum1 to hold on to, sum1 that they noe could hold their hands firmly n lead the way?

maybe.probably.might be.

huhu.i'm juz ordinary.no super power.i'm just ME.

JUST ME



i think about it again.
n reconsider about being put that way by ppl holding on to me.
so in other words, i have to be strong.i have to keep on moving.i have to hold their hands firmly to move on.

i have to.even how puny i am to d world.i have to.




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Thursday, February 18, 2010

when the dreams are too much to take in...

i tried hard not to shed a tear, but it dropped..
i tried hard not to b taken away by emotions, but it did..

i wished i could touch u once again
i wished i could kiss u once again
i wished i could hug u as tightly as i used to once again

if there is a chance, i will do all that...
no words to express hw i felt inside juz doing it to describe the emotions within..

hw much i missed u...


Abah, i'm coming soon :)
Amal, i'm coming soon..
dun worry..i will nvr forget u.i can nvr forget :)

hmph~
missing u too much ;(
AlFatihah.




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Wednesday, February 17, 2010

so juz smile anyway :)

sometimes, it's better to shut ur mouth...
sometimes, it's better to shut ur eyes...
sometimes, it's better to numb ur ears...
sometimes, it's better to harden ur heart...
sometimes, it's better to leave things as they are...


wat to do when lyf ur livin' is as suck as ur hp dropped down into d drain?
juz keep on smiling anyway :)

maybe one day;
there will b sun to light ur days...
there will b someone to make u rmmber hw to laugh...
there will b something to make u rmmber hw to forgive..

so juz smile anyway...

it's not a crime to live ur lyf as pathetic as that..
bt at least, ur mind + ur soul are only yours to deal with..
no one could take that away.

dun even bother whether one day u'll stuck ur feet on mud...
coz have faith..
maybe one day, lyf could b as beautiful as after the rain stormed in...


so juz smile anyway :)




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Monday, February 15, 2010

feb14...wat did i do ?

hi!

huhu.feb14, aku buat per?

1.tgk wayang : 1500 True Legend & 1740 Percy Jackson and The Lightning Thief
comment : BEST !! tgk lew.hahaha.

2.ronda² EastCoastMall, suda sebulan x singgah.hahahaha.

most of d tym, having fun wif ma family ^^ ehek.

well, nothing more to add.
juz, Gong Xi Fa Cai to all chinese in d world! May they have a prosperous *betul ke aku eja? =.="* , wealthy, healthy + happy year ! ehek.

ngeh.ok ah.tata.mate aku cam naek juleng =.=" tgk tv straight lepas balik umah td.huhu.
okeh.papai!




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Thursday, February 11, 2010

tade tajuk ah...

windu sepupu sepapat, makcik², anak² sedara + frens ;(
wish could put them in a package n ship them here :(
haish~




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nowhere beats home ! betul aku kate neh =.="

ugh.
letih.

tuh je mmpu taip.

yesterday, d whole trip aku + family asyik brkejo².hahahahaha.
lawak.plus bengang.hahaha.

papehal, alhamdulillah..tiba dgn selamat tepat 2300@kuantan.

no place beats home.i love ma home.hahaha.
besides, da bulan feb :)
jiwa neh cam trpggil², trbyg² muke abah+bby.tuh yg x sabo nk balik.

conclusion to ma vacation ?
BEST!

sad to leave the ones i love back there.
bt hey!
aku happy dpt kembali ke negara aku sndiri.
seriously.
mase aku dgr akak PA kt KLIA tuh buat announcement, aku tataw yg aku leh ade prasaan cinta gile babi+rindu yg meluap pabila mndgr bahasa sndiri :))=))
no more ENGLISH!
hahahahahaha.
cam da abes ilmu bahse omputih aku gune for a month kt kg Mdm.
letih² =.="

besides, i miss ma dad+ma bro so much.they're calling out to me to come home.
kept on having suppressed feelings towards them throughout d last 2weeks.
yea.it's near suda :) i noe.


it's GREAT to b HOME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!




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Monday, February 08, 2010

tade tajuk ah.

letih!

tuh je aku mmpu taip.

pics?

update kt fb nnti bile da smpai m'sia :D eheh.


okeh.tata !

esok, travelling bck around 1800.expecting to b bck at 2200@KL.maybe la ;p

okeh ah.papai.




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