Thursday, December 31, 2009

BoysLikeGirls + Taylor Swift - Two Is Better Than One. . .

love dis immediately <3
it's like a message, to ma past :)
herm.

no further comment.huhu.

I remember what you wore on the first day
You came into my life
And I thought hey
You know this could be something
'Cause everything you do and words you say
You know that it all takes my breath away
And now I'm left with nothing

'Cause maybe it's true, that I can't live without you
Well maybe two is better than one
There's so much time, to figure out the rest of my life
And you've already got me coming undone
And I'm thinking two, is better than one

I remember every look upon your face,
The way you roll your eyes, the way you taste
You make it hard for breathing
'Cause when I close my eyes and drift away
I think of you and everythings okay
And finally now, we're leaving

And maybe it's true, that I can't live without you
Well maybe two is better than one
There's so much time, to figure out the rest of my life
And you've already got me coming undone
And I'm thinking two, is better than one

Yeah, yeah

I remember what you wore on the first day
You came into my life
And I thought hey

Maybe it's true, that I can't live without you
Maybe two is better than one
There's so much time, to figure out the rest of my life
And you've already got me coming undone
And I'm thinking

Oooh I can't live without you
'Cause baby two is better than one
There's so much time, to figure out the rest of my life
And I've figured out with all that's said and done
Two, is better than one

Two is better than one



[thnx.t0.SweetLyrics]




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31.12.09 - conclusion is ?

aiseyh =.=" pegi blogwalking.rata2 entri psal papai 2009 + welcome 2010.
huh =3

hw bout mine then?
tataw nk post per =.="

post entri psal wat had happen je ah.okeh?


things happened within this year.

  • Jan ? = tade bnde happen.juz happy thoughts wif manusia2 sekeliling.
  • Feb ? = 28.02, kehilangan 2 org yg trcinta : abah, Idris Yusop + bby boy, Mohd Ikhmal Hisham Idris.cause ? road accident.
  • Mar ? = 29.03, lost d love of my life : kekasih hati, Mohd Najib Ahmad Salemy.cause ? it was never meant to b.need anymore cause ?
  • July ? = 22.07, bufday Ms. Farah yg ke 19.1st tym without Abah + Amal.
  • Nov ? = 16.11, bufday Mdm Emy yg ke 46.17.11, anniversary Abah + Mama yg ke 25; without them..sedih.26.11, Raya Haji dgn relatives blah abah.celebrate for d 1st tym wif them n without abah + amal.
  • Dec ? = 17.12, adik + kakak Mdm dr NZ dtg melawat + buat IC tuk Yuen.19.12, bwk mereka ziarah pusara.21.12, Mdm balik Phils jmpa mmber lama.23.12, pening pala dgn doc.g SKYNET.26.12, Mdm panic x smpai2 lagi doc..xde nnti, xleh balik.29.12, bufday si dia yg ke 20.keseorangan.pdn muke ? walopon bgtu, sian beliau.30.12, akhirnya, dpt lek doc.lega!



tuh je la kut. :|


azam ?

forward je last yr's nyer to d next yr.
tuh je aku slalu buat.

huhuhu.
xde bnde aku azam sgt pn.

jd manusia yg baik + berguna kpd kuarge, bangsa, agama + negara.cewah!
tp betul la er.tade bnde yg brubah thru d years.
nk tmbh azam?
maleh ah.nnti x trcapai kna forward ke dpn lak.malas er =.="

if there's sumthing in store for me in 2010, i'll b receiving it wif open arms.
x pnh tutup pn.terima je.
kesedihan, kegembiraan..segala-galanya akn dtrima.huhu.
redha?

aku da brtawakal + berusaha, jika itu yg dsediakn kpd aku..aku redha :)

aku brsyukur ada manusia2 yg bg support in times of anything.
aku brsyukur dkurniakn Abah yg gile2 + besh n dpinjamkn kpd aku selama 23thn aku idop.
aku brsyukur dkurniakn Adik Lelaki yg dtggu2 n dpinjamkn selama 12thn.dialah impian aku.

tade bnde lain lagi yg aku harapkn agar mereka aman disana.
tade bnde lain yg aku harapkn agar satu ari nnti akn dtemukn dgn mereka.
tuk satu ari nnti dpt memeluk mereka, mencium mereka, brckp dgn mereka, brgelaktawa dgn mereka, brgurau dgn mereka.

Abah, terima kasih for giving me life.i juz wanna u to noe that u've taught me well.for all d sins i've done, it's due to my inexperience of life.i noe ur watching me thou i cant see u no more.u've raised n instilled gud things within me.
i juz wanna let u noe hw much i missed u.hw much i loved u.
thanks Pa.love u so much :*

Bby, thnx for being ma only bratty, notty, mischievious little baby boy.i've had so much fun raising u up, seeing u grow into a fine young man.
thnx for listening to me, sitting beside me, teased me, kissed me n hugged me when i'm terribly down n upset wif d whole world.
i wanna let u noe that i'm proud of u.
for 12yrs u've been wif me, i nvr had any resent towards u bt love only.
i too wanna let u noe hw much i missed u.hw much i loved u.
thnks Amal.love u too darn much! :*


i hate when i cry.damn! i'm crying too much.hati aku masih x puas menangis.sgguh sedih.tp aku taw, aku mesti tabah tuk yg masih tinggal.damn! xmo nanes ah!! =.="


to ma remaining family,
i love u always.
will always b there whenever needed.
will always protect.
will always supporting.

dun worry abt me disappearing coz i wont.ever! :)


to ma dak kecik,
u noe hw i felt for u thou ur not by my side no more.
dun do stupid things anymore.
b a man n grow up k?
it's not d end of d world.everyone's gonna die 1 day.
so, do ur best b4 our times' up.dun u agree?

to ma wifeys,
thnx for making me laugh :p
thnx for taking ma mind out of d gutter.
thnx for juz remaining :)



all comes down to one.
i juz hope 2010 will bring everyone joy, happiness + peace in their lives.
sm0ga Allah merahmati hamba2 Nya.
amin.




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sweet dreams. . .

tdo !


mata da rabak !


tata !




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Wednesday, December 30, 2009

CONTESTO de LOUR






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buta buta !!

warghhhhhhhhhhhh~!
leh buta mate aku sbb silau melampau X_X

arghhhhhhh~!

saket pewut.saket pewut.


jnjln sekitar kastil wa.




tata.




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yeah ! suda abes !

ahhh~! [lega.]
suda abes edit.kekekekeke.

okeh x?
hahaha.
neh da abes simple =.="
isk.





**maso edit2 pic tuk header + tracker, sadis melanda.xleh tgk pic mereka lamo2.buat aku sadis. :|




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TaeYang - Where U At




taeyang <3

ahaks.sexier everytime i see.


** i dun even noe wat's ur name boi! so tell me where u at! huh~ searching..scanning..fer Mr. Right.




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Heartbeat - 2PM



hooked <3

kihkihkih.

taekyon; sgguh seksi!
wooyoung; sgguh hot!
chansung; auww!
junsu; arrr..!
junho; auwww <3 !
nikhun; maseh comel spt biase.cume tmbh HOT-ness.kakaka




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tuko layout.pening pala. . .

alhamdulillah!
doc yg aku anto to Mdm selamat brada di tgn beliau.phew!

so, buleh balik N9 ikut Ibu sekeluarga :)

lega.lega.



aku?


tataw nk watpe.


rase cam nk tuko layout ah.
serabut aku tgk =.="
pkai template sedia ade ah.
buhsan tol nk upgrade.
downgrade layout ah.
kihkihkih.



pening pening.




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Tuesday, December 29, 2009

blub blub. . .

hari neh.wat happen?

1.retrieved Ms. Ecah's hp [alhamdulillah!]
2.Mdm gelabah.bg aku + Ms. Ecah saket pala + saket hati. grrr..
3.pegi SKYNET for confirmation + contact num at Manila.
4.g MESRAMALL, melantak !
5.surfing d net smpai mata lebam.

haha.

[aku sbnrnye nk taip entri psl aku nk diet.tp agak segan.hahahaha.]
so tata!




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snap : sepupu2 mengom.hahaha.




missing them also ;(
wonder wat're they up to nw.




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a day wif Mr. Nubhan. . .

okeh.bnde neh da lamo :D
tp saje je nk post.kahkahkah.

jmpe nubhan af5 <3






jmpe die kt petronas family day (270509) kt KDRP, Kerteh, Trganu.
[aku xde kaitan dgn Petronas.aku hny pgguna minyak Petronas sahaja.haha.tp semate2 nk jmpe nubhan! aku pegi je :"> kihkihkih.]


tuh je aku nk mmbebel.sekian.
hahahahaha.




**berangan Mr.Nubhan pkai full suit Baju Melayu lengkap dgn tengkolok.wah~! hensemnye.skali bwk rombongan da! gemuruhnye.syoknye.hahahahaha.Mdm dpt menantu artis yg hensem + sweet + gentle neh.hahahaha.




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snap : mereka











**tetibe er.rindu mereka ;(




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snap : faiz

rindu faiz. ;(







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mornite everyone !

ngntok suda.pg kang nk g kuantan.retrieve Ms. Ecah nyer hp yg trtggl kt mane ntah.
lam bas kut.huhuhu.
naseb ade makhluk Allah yg baik neh.tp tuh lew, scary sbb die laki. =.="
camne neh?
pegi la.papehal, hit n run je.hahahaha =))

tomorrow jua ade appointment yg mnyakitkn.
so b ready ye cik zura.haha.

cam mmber aku taip.
mornite!

haha.




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Happy Birthday Dak Kecik !

okeh.
today is a special day for someone.
walopon die mngkin xde ah happy or excited mane dgn hari ni.
i juz want to wish him this.




Happy Birthday Dak Kecik!!!


xmo sedih2.xmo sakit2 hati.
juz pk d good times yg kamo pnh ade lam idop kamo.
it's not like i dun wanna b d 1st to greet.
juz, i dun want to b trlalu menonjol lam idop kamo.
xmo sedih k?
selamat hari jadi skali lagi :)



** I.S.L.U.F. << crack d code dak kecik kalo hebat.hahaha.




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Monday, December 28, 2009

pada suatu petang. . .

Venue : Around Kerteh til Kemasik.

sebelum masok gear 1.ternampak kete neh.pergh!



okeh! off to d Pantai Kemasik! yeah! haha.

setibenye kami...
per lagi ? posing2 le :p haha.


Ms. Ecah posing.hahaha.



buah hati ku.sayang mereka smpai mati.



cumel aku tgk bgnan neh.haha.



ramai sgt manusia.



ske tgk.



nk mandi.tp pntai neh x selamat tuk mandi-manda.terlalu dalam.



d view's nice.



saje wat gempak.jurugambar suwoh.hahahaha



jurugambar nk gak masok lam pic walopn sbnrnye pemalu nk mmpoz.kehkehkeh.





same je.kna buli dgn jurugambar.hahaha



buli2.hahaha



kalo bleh mmegang awan yg cam cotton candy tuh.akan ku mkn ia smpai kenyang! haha!



nmpk bulan x? kecik je.cam berlian.huhu



snap snap.



perkampungan nelayan.



it's time to go home.nk maghrib suda.



so, we say goodbye.we'll come again.wif Mdm :)




sekian.
terima kasih.
hahaha.




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tggu oh tggu. . .

heh.

aku nk upload pic skrng neh.

tp aku xmo upload kalo aku x edit.haha.

so tggu je la er.




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knkdg perempuan ada yg camni. . .

okeh.

nape er, everytime ade je manusia neh x reti bahse =.="
d ones who doesnt know when to stop.
susah sgt ke to let go when every single thing yg ptut dibuat suda dlakukn dgn jayanya tp masih x brjaya?

okeh.
katekn je lah aku x paham.
trhegeh2 kpd seseorg yg terang2 da bahagia.
kalo org tuh x bahgia len cite ah =.="
neh bahagia kut.
or x nmpk per aku taip neh.

B . A . H . A . G . I . A

grr...

suda2 la perempuan yg masih x sedar dr lamunan kelmarin.
citer indah yg korg harapkn tuh da ke longkang la weyh.
wake up n smell d roses la !

bkn aku nk kondem.tp tuh la hakikat yg aku nmpk n aku saksikn sndiri.dgr sndiri.baca sndiri.
dr segi pemahaman aku, ni la yg aku dpt.
forgive me if im wrong ah kn tp ini la realitinye.
ada lagi perempuan camni.

nk kate BITCH kang, saket lak hati.

so ikut pndai ah.
in d games of war, u have to know when to give up.
dun b a suck-up loser yg masih x admit kekalahan.
malu ah weyh =.="
menjatuhkn martabat kaum sndiri je. =.="




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come out n play !

aku sbnrnye da xmo post entri.
sbb aku da buat entri pepagi bute td.haha.

jd.


per aku nk wat?



nk edit pic?



malas ah.tgh on standby neh =.="
bile adek aku neh nk call g workshop neh =.="
ish!




tuh je aku nk taip.



papai.




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tired suda. . .

haih~

aku rase cam aku da lama idop. =.="
tetibe trase cam da letih idop kt dunia neh.
bkn aku x brsyukur masih dpnjgkn usia.
mesti ade reason nape aku x ikut skali Sir Idris + Mr. Amal :)

aku pk tuh je.aku pegang tuh je.

bnde yg da trjadi, biarkn ah ia brlalu wif ease.tenang.senang.
xyah serabutkn pala dgn WAT IF questions.

no need for revenge.no need for paying back deeds.no nothing.

aku happy dgn life aku skrng.
walopon agak platonik.tp aku senang camni.
tade fuss.tade kacau bilau.aman dan damai.
tenang cam air tasik.

segala yg brlaku, aku salahkn diri aku sbb allowing it to happen.
n yea! dun worry.i'll forever b carrying this guilt.
F.O.R.E.V.E.R.
dramatic?
maybe ah.

meeting sum1, falling in love wif sum1 then, breaking up wif sum1.
tuh sume lumrah idop.
atas manusia tuh je nk pilih option ape.
aku da trjebak dgn option yg aku pilih.
i can't erase that fact.
aku mngkin xkn benarkn sesape pn mndekati hati aku.
sbb aku rase diri aku neh tuk die je.
da kna cop.
cam main kejo2..tag! ur it.
cume lam kes neh, tag! ur mine! huhu.

aku tataw aku leh erase everything abt him.die la impact plg besar lam idop aku.

d next person after him, kna trima aku seadanya.cinta aku seadanya.maafkn aku atas kesilapan aku.

tp aku doubt aku leh jmpe manusia sebaik tuh :)

tuh psl aku pilih tuk b in solitude.
sbb aku taw, nobody could accept sum1 flaws 100%.
kill me la if i'm wrong.
betul kn?

aku senang camni skrng.
biar ah aku camni je.

x mati pn tade lelaki in my life.
aku juz kna tggu adik2 aku nikah je.
then, i'm off wif Mdm.go wherever she wants to go.
temankn each other sehingga malaikat mmbawa salah seorg drpd kami pergi.

impian aku for him ?
aku trpakse lupekn :) sbb aku taw xkn ade chance tuh pn.
in d afterlife, i always wanted to b wif him only.

tp aku taw, aku x mmpu.die juge x mmpu tuk mmbuat pape sbb aku mnghalang :)

jd jika satu ari nnti, aku trserempak dgn die wif his family...i juz hoped that he wont notice me.
and if die prasan, i juz hoped that he wont stop tuk menegur aku.
jln je terus.jgn benti for anything.
smpai memasing da xde lam view memasing.


tuh je aku mmpu buat tuk die.
not knowing wif whom he's wif.not knowing did he take care of himself.
not updating wif anything abt his life.
ckp ah aku taw, prasaan die tuk aku n die taw prasaan aku tuk die.


let time decides whether our feelings could conquer the test of time or not.
if sum what he goes on to d afterlife b4 me, i will still have dis feelings for him.

hahhhhh~
letih! hati aku da letih.
aku menolak kehendak hati aku tuk mnjaga keharmonian kehidupan die yg baru.
bodoh?
hey, u'll understand if ur in ma shoes ;p
or maybe u'll not.
depends on how well u can fill in to my shoes. :)

org akn kate aku neh bodo.
ade aku peduli?
neh kesah aku.citer aku.care aku tuk melawan perang aku.
u guys juz have to watch n enjoy d show.huhu.
tuh pn kalo korg interested in ma story la kn.
no stress!
ppl come n go.i noe that.
tp matters of d heart neh bknnye cam magik yg bile kite tepuk tgn, ade arnab kuar dr topi tetibe.senang pegi, senang dtg.
senang diubah2.
oh no.perihal hati neh, bknnye senang tuk diselesaikn pufff! camtuh je.

i wont say those words.or even typed those words.
bt i noe he knows.
nape?
sbb aku nyer ego neh besar cam aku.maybe even bigger.ngeh!

once aku kate aku xkn buat, aku xkn buat.
unless, i changed ma mind.huhu.

bt let me juz stick to d plan k?
i wont typed those words.i wont say those words.
biar ah memasing kempunan dgn prkataan ajaib tuh.
that's d price we have to pay.
tragic?
dun b sorry.

aku juz mngarot.xyah sentimental :) kihkihkih...



**aku tataw per aku carotkn neh.mngkn nk buang stress sbb da been revealed.huhu.forgiveness is all i ask.forgiveness is all i can give too.




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Sunday, December 27, 2009

bebelan yg mngarot. . .

heh.
aku ske amek pics.tp pehtu aku tataw nk watpe dgn pics yg aku amek.
knkdg bile check balik, cam meraban je aku g snap pic.
ntah memane aku halakn lense aku tuh. =.="
huhu.

well, i'll upload them.
cume not d rite tym yet.
tggu d creative me kuar dulu.heheh~!


ciao!



**got headache a while.need to back off from bright lights.killing me.ugh~!




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wat's ur personality type ?

You are observant, cooperative, informative, and attentive. You are greatly concerned with the security of others and you often find assisting the downtrodden or people with disabilities to be satisfying. You also find personal fulfillment in ensuring the safety of others and may be attracted to jobs that enable you to do this as a medical practitioner or insurance agent. You are also quite skilled at executing routines and this enables you to be skillful in jobs that require conservation skills such as a curator or police officer. You are thorough, frugal and you abhor the squandering of material resources.

You are comfortable working alone and you are often uncomfortable being in positions of authority. When you are in positions of authority, you often try to do everything yourself. You have a very strong work ethic and this can lead you to be overworked. The least hedonistic of the role variants, you are willing to complete jobs other role variants manage to avoid, especially if it enables you to help those in need.

You often talk about daily life and every day concerns; however, you are not as sociable as other role variants. You tend to be talkative only among a close circle of friends. Your shyness with strangers can make you seem to be cold even though you are often warm and sympathetic. You are often undervalued as your commitment to security and your economies are often taken for granted.

You value traditional ways of doing things and are not interested in experimentation or speculation. You deeply value family history, heirlooms and property as well as cultural norms and traditions. You firmly believe in the stability offered by credentials, titles, offices, birth and other forms of traditional authority. You dislike situations where the rules are constantly changing.

Famous Protectors include George H.W. Bush, Jimmy Stewart, and Mother Teresa.




di atas adalah keputusan ujian personaliti aku.
nape la accurate =.="
sesape ade fb, ha pegi ah test sndiri eh.huhuhu...
Personality Test




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a beautiful note for u girls. . .

She's the one you call when you're bored because she makes you laugh. She's the one you talk to when you're feeling down because she's willing to lend an ear&be a friend. She's not the one you call when you need a date to your company's Christmas party,or to go dancing with on a Saturday night.She's the one you spend time with between girlfriends,before you find "The One".You know,the one who you keep around in the meantime.She's not one of the guys,not a tomboy,but you don't look at her as a 'real' woman,either.She's not b**chy enough,or moody enough to be seen in that light.She's too laid-back,too easily amused by the same things your male buddies are amused by.She's too understanding,too comfortable;she doesn't make you feel nervous or excited the way a 'real' woman does. But she's cool and nice and funny & attractive enough that when you're lonely & need female companionship,she'll do just fine.You don't have to wine & dine her because she knows the real you already,&you don't have any facades to keep up,no pretenses to preserve.You're not trying to get anything of substance out of her. she's not easy,but you know that she cares about you & is attracted to you, & that she'll give you the friend you need. And you know you don't have to explain yourself or the situation, that she'll be able to cope with the fact that this isn't the beginning of a relationship or that there's any possibility that you have any real romantic feelings for her. It won't bother her that you'll go on a date with the woman you've been mooning over for weeks who finally agreed to go out with you. She'll settle for a goodbye hug & a promise to call her & tell her how the date went.She's just so cool.But deep down,IF you really think about it (which you probably don't because to you, the situation between the two of you isn't important enough to merit any real thought),you know that it's really not fair.You know that although she would never say it,it hurts her to know that despite all her good points & all the fun you two have,you don't think she's good enough to spend any real time with. Sure, it's mostly her fault because she doesn't have to give in to your needs.She could play the hard-to-get person like the rest of them do,if she really wanted to. But you & she both know that she probably couldn't pull it off.Maybe she's too short or a little overweight or has a big birthmark on her forehead.Whatever the reason is,somehow life has given her a lot of really great qualities but has left out the ones that men want (or think they want) in a woman.So she remains forever the funny friend,the steadfast companion,& you go on searching for your goddess who will somehow be everything you ever wanted in a woman.You'll joke to her that she should be the best man at your wedding, & she'll laugh and make a joke about a smelly rental tux.She doesn't captivate you with her beauty,or open doors with her smile.Mainly she blends in with the crowd. She's safe.She doesn't want to be the center of attention & turn the heads of everyone in the room,but she wants to turn someone's head.She wants to be special to someone,too.We all do.She has feelings; she has a heart.In fact,she probably has a bigger & better heart than any woman you've ever known because she's had a front-row seat to The Mess That Is Your Life, & she likes you anyway.She obviously sees something worthwhile & redeeming in you because although you've given her nothing,she is there,will still be there and will forever be there for you..

[thnx.t0.NurFarhana]


**a note that reminds me of who i am.dak kecik ! bace neh! x phm? pegi blaja! hahaha =))




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bodoh.full stop.noktah.

ish! =.="

aku x ske org cabar aku.
sbb per?
sbb aku x ske ah! need any reason ?
huhuhu.

k ah aku admit.aku ske dgr sore die. *rolled eyes*
n mostly ma entries were based on him.
sbb per ?
sbb aku gilekn die.dahulu kala k ? DAHULU KALA...!

aku mmg xmo ade entri psl die lg da.tp aku rase, slagi die ade lam idop aku, slagi tuh ade citer psl die.well, bkn secare zahirnye le.literally typing it, he's still in ma life.
couldnt get him out.walopn aku da cube.tp die tuh degil cam lembu jantan yg buduh x reti nk tgk kiri kanan jalanraya to back off from ma life!

it's not ma fault he's been wif me for years!
okeh ah.it's mine.sbb aku LET him b in ma pathetic life. =.="

even td pg pn aku rase pelik.
nape la budak sengal neh ade lam mmpi aku =.="

we were at tepi jln.kt tepi tiang lampu trafik.die asyik jeling kt aku.
jeling x pueh ati =.=" buduh mamat neh.

aku nk lintas jln tp agak scary sbb byk sgt kenderaan.
jd aku trpegang tgn die.

die trkejut.aku pn trkejut.
last2 aku cepat2 lepaskn tgn aku.

"ouh.sorry, xleh nk pegang tgn da kn?" - he said.

die jeling kt aku.ampeh laki neh. *cebik*

die x ckp gune sore die.instead, like telepathic.we talked thru minds.weird huh?
huhu.

aku pn jln je trus.tinggalkn die trpinga2 kt tepi jln tuh.
aku x ske ah!

he tried to get close.tp aku asyik lari.huhu.da jd cam citer hindustan lak =.="
naseb xde scene guling2 je.

aku bengang ah dgn mamat neh.kot ye pn, bknnye aku HINGIN sgt pegang tgn die!
aku TER-pegang kut.grrr..~~
tuh pn nk make a great deal.hish~!

papepn, walo jauh camne pn aku lari, die tetap mmbontoti aku.
cam aku neh da jd target.
gile laki neh! =.="

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k.an hour b4.
he called.ye die test call aku sbnrnye.
die nk test samade aku angkat or x.

die ade doubts.tp die brjaya tepis doubts tuh saying to himself that i will pick d phone.
n i did.
it's not that i wont pick it up.i checked d screen many times b4 i answered it.
tp aku tade niat yg buruk smpai xmo angkat tepon drpd die.
unless, mmg aku nk potong ties between me n him.

i dun have prasaan yg buruk towards him.walopon d fact yg die da out of ma reach tuh still remains.huhu.
tp mmg aku tade pape prasaan yg jahat pn kpd die.

spnjg conversation tuh, he laughed a lot.
aku ske dgr die gelak.spt mane die ske dgr aku.
ye =.=" kitorg cam org gile ske dgr sore memasing.huhu..
like i typed b4, aku n die tade prasaan buruk psl each other.
it's easy for ppl to tell yg aku n die neh masih mnympan prasaan kasih lagi to each other.huhu.

huh~!
die kate aku xkn mmpu mncari sum1 a lot better than him coz he's too good.
ek?
aku bkn xmo cari.aku malas.lelaki adalah umat manusia yg plg jelik bg aku skrng neh.exceptions for ma boys n d men who fought for our religion, our race n our beloved country.
kecuali mereka.
d rest? they're juz trash.
betul.sampah je.

tuk mncari seseorg yg cam dlm soap opera n novel cinta melayu yg budak2 neh ske bace, TER-amatlah payah!
betul.payah.

tp if he's too good.then wat abt me ?
so die x pilih aku sbb i'm not good la.ek?
aku taw aku sape.
aku buruk.ye aku taw.

aku x HOT.
aku x CUN.
tp alhamdulillah, aku rase prangai aku xde ah cam BITCH.
truthfully, aku x ske konflik.aku x ske gado2.
ye aku admit aku kalah dgn pmpn yg ade lam idop die skrng.
huh~!

tp aku pn bknnye nk sgt brtanding.
pmpn tuh da pegang kemas2 ma once-upon-a-tym lover. =.="
aku taw, ex aku tuh miang orgnye.
jd, aku relakn je.
smoga mereka brbahgia selamanya!

aku bkn cam pmpn len ah.
trhegeh2 bile da taw da kalah.
sorry k! aku bkn manusia jenis tuh.
aku taw when to stop.n aku x ske merungut bile aku da kalah.
aku admit aku kalah.

die bkn tuk aku.aku sedar.
jadi aku lepaskn die pergi dr idop aku.
aku x anggap die kwn.x gak anggap die pakwe.
die cam tgh2..antara kwn n kekasih.
tuh psl aku masih bleh jwb tepon die.

aku gelak.die gelak.
i dunno y tp sbnrnye he's pushing me to get over him.
tp die taw, aku neh cam beruang.xkn brganjak nye kalo da hibernasi.huhuhu.
ULTRA pemalas.

i WILL find ma perfect guy someday.
cume not now.
to really erase budak kecik neh dr hutak aku takes years.ataupn lelaki tuh kna lebih HEBAT dr die. [die hebat ? lam hutak die je die hebat.prasaan lebeh je mamat tuh.glabah je.]

me : ei.bile kamo nk kuar dr hutak sy?
DK : never kut.
me : never er? x mngkin.i'll find a way to get u out from ma head.
DK : cari ah.

ampeh er mangkuk hayun sorg neh =.="

DK : org saje je test.angkat ke x.huhu
me : so, sy da angkat neh.ok ah tuh er?
DK : tp org taw.awk sure angkatnye.hahaha
me : ceh.konfidennye.xpe. [org ske konfiden kamu.sbb tuh org xleh brhenti ske kamu.] *lam kurungan tuh, volume suara slow.huhuhu

huh~!

ade certain things die mmbebel td.tp aku x dpt nk tngkap per die ckp sbb die ckp slow.
aku biarkn je.lebih baik aku x dgr per die ckp td.
takut nnti aku trbuke hati or trsakit hati.haha.

nape aku xmo ade connection dgn kuarge die?
cukup ah.buang masa je.
aku xmo jd family's friend or sumthing.
aku xmo knal sape pmpn tuh.ckp ah aku taw die sum1 kpd die.
ckp ah aku taw die reti jage budak neh drpd aku.
ckp ah aku taw budak neh bahgia dgn pmpn tuh.
tp yg pelik, die x pnh kate pape psal die bahgia ke x.aku perlu taw ke? ekkk! x pyh cik azura.x pyh.mmbelitkn keadaan je nnti.

aku mmg xmo ade connection dgn die juge.letih ah.
lenguh hati.haha.
so aku lebih prefer camni.nk kate kwn, no.nk kate pakwe, hell NO!
jd..die tade status lam idop aku.
cume ade tmpt yg agak besar lam hati aku.
damn! =.="


aku x ske menyusahkn situasi yg trsedia complicated.
jd aku biarkn je masa tuk meleraikn ikatan yg bersimpul2 tuh.
maybe in time, die pn leh rela melepaskn aku pergi walopon pd awalnye die da kate yg die da lepaskn aku.
huhuhuhu...

alahai dak kecik dak kecik...
jgn memain ngn akak leh x?
akak maw kehidupan lain.so xyah ah claim pape.
citer kite neh kn dek, da lame tamat.
citer adek da lame start.siap branak pinak laie.ngee.
u might think ur too good for me.yeah ur too good.
that's why u left me.
so i'm gonna b better since d day u left.
i dun need a man to replace u.i'll juz let u vanish from ma head in ma own sweet time.
sooner or later, u will b gone frm ma head.juz like a long-lost memory.

ok.d scary part.telephatic minds.
nape aku ngn die nyer hutak neh connected? =.="
aku sndiri tataw nape.
tuh psl aku tny soalan bodo.bile die nk kuar dr pala aku?

everytime aku trase gile aku smpai.
he'll respond.
everytime aku TERmimpi die.
he'll respond.
jd aku ske ah wat teori bodo gak la kn bahwesenye, he wont come to me in dreams if he didnt think of me.i wont think of him, if he didnt think of me.
bodoh x?
yes.it's dumb.it's stupid.
tp actually, it's accurate.99% ah accurate.

sape la nk buang mase pk psl die anyway?
aku bknnye slalu pk psl die.
tp bile trdetik, memori psl die da smpai lam pala aku..i'm in trouble.
huhu.
mamat tuh je yg phm per aku mngarut neh anyway.
lalalalala~
bila bln mngmbang.b4, present n after bln mngmbang are d worst periods.
aku akn slaluuuuuuu tringt psl die.
sesungguhnya, aku benci bile ia brlaku. =.="


prsoalannya!
mmpukah aku tuk mncari sum1 better than him?
i dunno..maybe 1 day i'll try huh?

**die ske seksa batin aku.mmg.dak mengom tuh GILE ske mnyeksa.aku tataw nape die ske wat aku camni.bodoh ah die.dok dendiam pegi seksa pmpn die ah.pehal lak nk mngggu jiwa aku? aku bknnye sesape.x mnggegarkn jiwa+hati die pn.like he said, he's too good for me.so aku wat konklusi, aku neh far from good.that's y he left.jd WTH die ske mngggu aku? per motif die? xleh ke die biarkn je aku.xyah ah tny samade aku masih ade prasaan kt die ke x.nk jd kwn, do me a favor.dun talk abt d past.i HATE.it seems to me that u regret letting me go.kamo bg sy harapan? DONT ok.im better off without u.




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im not perfect. . .

herm.
im not a perfect person.
face it! setiap manusia ade flaw yg diorg nk hide.tol?

aku pn ade flaw yg mmg aku rase aku xkn mmpu tuk undone.
d only thing i do nw, is juz hope that i could b forgiven.

bnde yg dlarang slalunye VERY enticing.true or not?
true la :p

tp, bknnye aku nk menunjuk2 kt sini.no that's not my reason here.

juz, knkdg aku trpk..
aku neh ske pk dalam.knkdg caught up by my own thinking.
too many questions.too many possibilities.too many outcomes.


i've made a mistake.yes, i AM sorry for it.
i will NEVER do it again even it kills me.

maybe i'm too naive.hanging around wif stupid crowd.
yes, i'm smarter than that bt somehow i end up being stupid.
huhu.

pnh b in this situation?

fuhh~!

aku juz brdoa kpd Dia bahwe aku dpt diampunkn.
dr sekecik2 dosa smpai ke beso2 dosa yg aku da lakukn.
aku harap, manusia2 yg tlh mnjahanamkn aku dgn dosa2 neh satu hari nnti juga dpt diampunkn.

kna tetibe jd religious neh?

huhu.salah ke tetibe aku tringt dosa2 aku yg lepas?

aku bknnye malaikat.bkn juge setan.
aku bknnye immortal yg leh ade beribu thn tuk expertise myself tuk jd sebaik malaikat.

no.
im a mere mortal.
i do mistakes.i try to redeem myself.
i AM sorry for doing those hideous things to myself.mnganiayakn jiwa aku sndiri.

kpd manusia yg corruptkn aku, thnx for d experience. ;)
tp smntara im being nice for not neglecting, i pleed to u..come wif me n change.
sesame kite brubah tuk jd seorg hamba Tuhan yg baik.


** aku brterima kasih kpd seorg hamba Allah neh.die taw aku pnh wat onar tp die ttp kwn dgn aku.susah tuk cari kwn cam die.da cam family walopon kite x brape taw hal memasing.wahai adik, trima kasih sbb sudi menerima kakak yg hina neh ddlm hidup mu.jika aku brada ddlm proses tuk lakukn kesalahan, jgn segan menegur.terima kasih krn mmbenarkn aku brada didalm hidup mu, Nurulhuda Yusof.




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Saturday, December 26, 2009

SITI NOORHAFIZAH CARPIO IDRIS ! this blog goes to u. . .

herm.
knkdg aku rase aku neh mngabaikn citer psl kuarge aku er.
bkn aku xmo citer, juz bnde tuh masalah aku.
so aku x ske citer hal yg ade kaitan dgn kuarge aku.

buruk baik diorg, they're still family.

hari neh, baru aku dpt bace luahan adik aku yg bongsu.
walopon knkdg aku dpt rasekn yg die byk memerapkn rase di dlm hati die.
sejibik cam aku ;p

per psal ngn adik aku yg neh.
die neh da lew bongsu, so agak rase minor drpd kite yg kakak² die walopon die adalah antara org yg plg besar lam kuarge aku ;p
heheh.

aku syg die.cume knkdg it's hard for me to love her more sbb prangai die yg xleh nk dbaca knkdg.
aku outspoken, outspoken gak tp kalo things yg leh menimbulkn salah anggap atau kemarahan seseorg..aku rela brdiamkn diri tuk selamatkn keadaan.
aku x ske conflict tp xleh dielakkan sbb aku yg kakak.huhu.

jd bile die open up kat lam blog, aku rase lega.normal juge adik aku neh.heheh =))

antara adik² aku, yg plg susah nk dbaca per lam hutak die yg bongsu neh la.
cume aku leh bace bodylanguage die.jd aku leh agak.
sbb sumenye SO typically her ;p
i've known her for all her life anyway :p
cume x sume leh bace 100% per org len emits from their bodylanguage n stuffs..
jd by reading her blog, it helps ^^

org pendiam neh merbahaya.
jd aku slalu nk cari jln tuk bace pala die.
aku brsyukur sgt kpd org yg trgerak hati nk wat sistem blog neh! :))=))
at least, that's d most NORMAL thing abt her.
well, wat's NORMAL abt us anyway.
dr parents smpai le yg bongsu sumenye weird.hahahahahaha.

bt i love them wif all my heart♥

to ma lil sis.
i love u without any reason.juz d fact that ur my BIOLOGICAL SISTER makes u mine! :)
we grow up together.under one roof for all these years.
d only thing that tear us part is that there's no 2way communication between us.
i wished that we could talk to each other normally.
bt if this is d only thing that could make me understnd u better, then i'm welcoming it wif arms wide open!


**tuh psl aku kate b4..kn best kalo aku leh bace pala org =.=" huhuhu...




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Alvin n D Chipmunks : 2 . . .

hehe~!
semalam tgk Chipmunks ♥
beshhhhhhhhhhh~

cumel gile :))
it's a heart-warming movie for family viewing :)
nice for d season huh?
hehe..


well..
korg da tgk?
pegi ah tgk.besh! kehkehkeh...
nk tgk AVATAR lak :p
lalalala..ntah bile leh pegi tgk 8->





** tringt bile bby gave out names : Alvin - Amal , Simon - Angah, Theodore - Me =.=" uhuh~! me as Theodore...rite~ luckily he's VERY adorable ♥ ;p kihkihkih...




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Friday, December 25, 2009

Merry Christmas !

think i could need a rest for ma eyes for a while =.="
ma eyes getting tired wif all d surfing..huhu
sian ;p

well!

Merry Christmas to all d christians around d globe !
May d season gives its best to all !


**windu Mdm.bile die nk balik ? lmbt bona nk Jan 1 =.=" huh ! missing ma cuzzins too :( wished i could b there to personally greet them ;(




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Thursday, December 24, 2009

Lelaki² yg melakonkn watak peveret aku. . .



okeh! neh is d vid song for Meteor Garden a.k.a Hana Yori Dango a.k.a Boys Over Flower..huhu
actually, jepun yg produce dulu drama cume lmbt publish or so i've heard or read la...
taiwan nyer drama kuar dulu, tym tuh aku masih ingt aku masih student T_T form5 T_T
aku brikrar yg satu ari nnti aku akn beli cd drama die gak!
well, 2thn lps tuh..aku jmpe cd die in a price yg aku willing to pay :))
so, brbaloi ah menunggu + x melekat dpn tv semata2 nk tgk drama neh :))
last skali!
fusion of d 2 dramas from 2 diff countries : Boys Over Flower!
sesape yg ade tgk MG n HYD sure leh recognise certain clip yg ade prsamaannya ;p

papehal!
watak Lei! aku cop!

Hua Zhe Lei - aku nyer !
Hanazawa Rui - aku nyer gak !
Yoon Ji Hoo - aku nyer gak gak gak !
hahahaha =))

kenapa aku trtarik dgn watak neh ?
sbb aku ske jenis laki camtu :D
tp antara 3, aku plg ske Lei <3
lalala..

sape manusia yg melakonkn watak 3 nama neh?

Hua Zhe Lei - Vic Zhou



walopn aku sadis die kapel dgn Barbie Xu T_T aku merestui mereka..sbb aku ske Barbie gak..hahahaha


Hanazawa Rui - Shun Oguri



ahh~ salah seorg pakwe jpn yg aku minat :p


last bt not d least, d 3rd generation of d Knight In White.

Yoon Ji Hoo - Kim Hyun Joong



ngehehe..budak neh wa ske :"> he's also a singer in his group called SS501..
nape aku ske die ?
aku da trtarik dgn die mase die debut as a singer..
nape la ade lelaki cantik cam neh 8->
lalalala....




**out! makang2 tata! lalala...




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SS501 - Love Like This. . .



aku saje je maw letak..huhuhu..
neh er, group si Kim Hyun Jung aka Yoon Ji Hoo <3
kehkehkeh..
so enjoy!


by, SS501 - Love Like This


**kt lam collection aku kt umah =.=" aku da lost count da ade baper drama + movie citer Korea, Cine + Jepun.tuh lom masok citer Hindustan [eheh..zmn dulu kale..lalalala~!] lom trmasok citer English.tuh baru cd citer, lum laie cd lagu.xyah ah kire mp3 lagu diorg =.=" adik2 aku maniac Kpop n Jpop.uhuhuhu...




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if i could read minds. . .

huh!

kn besh kalo aku leh taw per yg manusia neh tgh pk =.="
tp not all i wanted to know.juz by contact to see wat d other person is thinking.
antara manusia yg aku nk sgt bace ape yg ade lam hutak die is him.

why him?
sbb aku nk taw ah! =.="

really.
why him?

huh~
coz i wanna find sumthing..
reassurance maybe..
sumthing to hold on to..to believe in..

trlalu byk soalan starts wif "adakah...?"
so aku perlukn jwpn.

bodoh?
sbb ape bodoh?
per yg aku dpt kalo aku taw?
sakit hati? maybe...
tp at least aku dpt clearance..
penjelasan trhadap sume yg da trjadi...

buang masa?
maybe.
tp aku snggup meluangkn masa aku tuk mndptkn penjelasan yg aku mahu tuk menenangkn hati aku sndiri.

lidah manusia neh fleksibel.
otak lak sgguh ligat.
to find d honest answer in sum1 is hard..especially kalo org tuh xde niat langsung nk bgtau d truth.


so tell me..
what exactly that u want to do?
what's in ur mind?
why are u being stubborn?
why can't u let go like u said u already did?

or r u juz lying to me juz to make me hate u more?

why did u do those things in d 1st place anyway?
if u really do keep me strongly in ur heart..why did u do d things u did?
why do u have to break my heart this way?

tell me why n explain...
why exactly u do d things u did?


when u say that it's over..
i listened..and walked away..
trying to collect all d broken pieces of my life...
i was broken...

n nw ur telling me that u still want me..need me..love me?

huh!
i'm not a toy, honey...
i've got feelings too..
i know how to get angry..sad or even happy..


hw would u feel if d roles switch between me n u?
me having fun with men...bt still wanting u by my side...

angry?
betrayed?

that's hw i feel dear :)
i dun need a player to b ma partner for life..
i need a man who loves me n see only me..
who wants to build a family wif me..play father + mother wif me when we having our own babies..
being faithful even when i'm not around..
coz u noe i'm faithful enough to u..u dun need to worry abt me playing two-timing behind u.
coz i wont do a thing to hurt u wif that..

bt u?
u've hurt me so bad that i'm afraid i can't repair myself anymore...

i'm trying to resist everytime ur trying to come in to me..filling my head wif ur sweet words...
i'm trying so hard to push d feelings for u outside ma heart...
i dun want ma feelings to crush me n make me fall down to my knees anymore..

once, is enough...

i dun want to b played any longer..
i dun want to b d fool anymore..
i dun want my love being betrayed anymore..
enough!


**letih! pinjam ayat nuyul jap.lenguh hati.hati aku lenguh.menanggung beban yg x trhingga.kenapa la die wat aku camni? =.=" seronok agaknye tgk aku sakit hati camni =.=" da ade org len, wat la prangai cam da ade org len.xpayah amek kesah psl aku da.even aku pn x hirau sgt psl mmber2 aku.tuh pn kalo die anggap aku mmber ah.kalo die cintakn aku ah kn, die xkn buat per yg die buat.tp die da buat, so? conclusion is : his love is not as strong as me.mmg la aku xkn sangkal lelaki bleh nikah smpai 4 tp adekah perlunya aku tuk menerima je? ewah ewah ewah~!! aku bknnye jenis yg menyokong 100% poligami k? aku kedekut! so dun expect me to share ma man wif any bitches! ah! pening pala aku.malas ah amek pusing hal neh lagi da.




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Wednesday, December 23, 2009

T-ara & Supernova - Time To Love mv. . .




**damn d words =.=" direct hit to d core! y do i still have an ENORMOUS place for him in my heart?? WHYYYYYYYY??!!




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mister potato : sour cream + onions anyone ?

eheh!
aku sbnrnye da tataw per nk pos =.="
sesambil meniarap atas lantai neh..aku pegi lew skodeng few blogs..
ade yg cumel..ade yg x..
tp kompem, aku leh kate..sumenye meriah! :p

aku ske bace blog yg ade interesting method of writing one's story...
contoh :

cik nuyul nyer blog.
why : sbb bg aku prkataan yg die pkai aku sndiri x mmpu nk pkkn at d tym :p aku ske..simple, sweet n a lil bit rough...juz~ nice! eheh~

cik ieda nyer blog.
why : sbb die neh sbnrnye blur kalo brkate2 secara lisan..jd aku ske bace per yg die taip..walopn knkdg die sndiri cam blur mnde die taip..smpai aku sndiri da blur per aku taip neh ?! =))

cik toge nyer blog.
why : sbb die taip aku rase same cam per die ckp..interesting [ei..bkn sume org camtu ke? huhu...] yg unik, die nyer expressions of words yg die pkai...agak happening smpai aku leh bygkn per yg brlaku..kuikuikui~

tp tuh atas pndpat aku le..
aku tataw ah care aku menaip neh camne plak kt manusia len :D
ngeh~!

huh~
buhsan ah plak =.="
nk mandi..tp tade mood..
kuikuikui..
tggu aku da super kebosanan baru aku gerak kut :D ngee~


well, layan fb jab ah!


**i'm bored..dunno wat to do...read books ? okeh kut..la5




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lirik oh lirik. . .

Even if you were a million miles away
I could still feel you in my bed
Near me, touch me, feel me
And even in the bottom of the sea
I can still hear inside my head
Telling me, touch me, feel me
And all the time you were telling me lies

So tonight I’m gonna find a way to make it without you
Tonight I’m gonna find a way to make it without you
I’m gonna hold onto the times that we had
Tonight I’m gonna find a way to make it without you

Have you ever tried sleeping with a broken heart
Well you can try sleeping in my bed
Lonely, only, nobody ever shut it down like you
You wore the crown, you make my body feel heaven-bound
Why don’t you hold me, need me, I thought you told me
You’d never leave me

Looking in the sky I can see your face
And i knew right where I’d fit in
Take me, make me
You know that I’ll always be in love with you
Right til the end

So tonight I’m gonna find a way to make it without you
Tonight I’m gonna find a way to make it without you
I’m gonna hold onto the times that we had
Tonight I’m gonna find a way to make it without you

Anybody could have told you right from the start
It’s bout fall apart
So rather than hold onto a broken dream
Or just hold onto love
And I could find a way to make it
Don’t hold on too tight
I’ll make it without you tonight

So tonight I’m gonna find a way to make it without you
Tonight I’m gonna find a way to make it without you
I’m gonna hold onto the times that we had
Tonight I’m gonna find a way to make it without you

by, Alicia Keys - Try Sleeping with a Broken Heart

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Oh-oh-oh-oh-oooh-oh-oh-oh-oooh-oh-oh-oh!
Caught in a bad romance

Rah-rah-ah-ah-ah-ah!
Roma-roma-mamaa!
Ga-ga-ooh-la-la!
Want your bad romance

Rah-rah-ah-ah-ah-ah!
Roma-roma-mamaa!
Ga-ga-ooh-la-la!
Want your bad romance

I want your ugly
I want your disease
I want your everything
As long as it's free
I want your love
(Love-love-love I want your love)

I want your drama
The touch of your hand
I want your leather-studded kiss in the sand
I want your love
Love-love-love
I want your love
(Love-love-love I want your love)

You know that I want you
And you know that I need you
I want it bad, your bad romance

I want your love and
I want your revenge
You and me could write a bad romance
(Oh-oh-oh--oh-oooh! )
I want your love and
All your lovers' revenge
You and me could write a bad romance

Oh-oh-oh-oh-oooh-oh-oh-oh-oooh-oh-oh-oh!
Caught in a bad romance
Oh-oh-oh-oh-oooh-oh-oh-oh-oooh-oh-oh-oh!
Caught in a bad romance

Rah-rah-ah-ah-ah-ah!
Roma-roma-mamaa!
Ga-ga-ooh-la-la!
Want your bad romance

I want your horror
I want your design
'Cause you're a criminal
As long as your mine
I want your love
(Love-love-love I want your love-uuhh)

I want your psycho
Your vertigo stick
Want you in my room
You know baby your sick
I want your love
Love-love-love
I want your love
(Love-love-love I want your love)

You know that I want you
('Cause I'm a freak bitch baby! )
And you know that I need you
I want your bad, bad romance

I want your love and
I want your revenge
You and me could write a bad romance
(Oh-oh-oh-oh-oooh! )
I want your love and
All your love has revenge
You and me could write a bad romance

Oh-oh-oh-oh-oooh-oh-oh-oh-oooh-oh-oh-oh!
Caught in a bad romance
Oh-oh-oh-oh-oooh-oh-oh-oh-oooh-oh-oh-oh!
Caught in a bad romance

Rah-rah-ah-ah-ah-ah!
Roma-roma-mamaa!
Ga-ga-ooh-la-la!
Want your bad romance

Walk, walk fashion baby
Work it
Move that bitch crazy

Walk, walk fashion baby
Work it
Move that bitch crazy

Walk, walk fashion baby
Work it
Move that bitch crazy

Walk, walk passion baby
Work it
I'm a freak bitch, baby

I want your love and
I want your revenge
I want your love
I don't wanna be friends

Je veux ton amour
Et je veux ta revanche
Je veux ton amour
I don't wanna be friends
Oh-oh-oh-oh-oooh!
I don't wanna be friends
(Caught in a bad romance)
I don't wanna be friends
Oh-oh-oh-oh-oooh!
Want your bad romance
(Caught in a bad romance)
Want your bad romance!

I want your love and
I want your revenge
You and me could write a bad romance
Oh-oh-oh-oh-oooh!
I want your love and
All your lovers' revenge
You and me could write a bad romance

Oh-oh-oh-oh-oooh-oh-oh-oh-oooh-oh-oh-oh!
Want your bad romance
(Caught in a bad romance)
Want your bad romance

Oh-oh-oh-oh-oooh-oh-oh-oh-oooh-oh-oh-oh!
Want your bad romance
(Caught in a bad romance)

Rah-rah-ah-ah-ah-ah!
Roma-roma-mamaa!
Ga-ga-ooh-la-la!
Want your bad romance

by, Lady Gaga - Bad Romance
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I hear the clock, it's six a.m.
I feel so far from where I've been
I got my eggs I got my pancakes too
I got my maple syrup, everything but you.
I break the yolks, and make a smiley face
I kinda like it in my brand new place
Wipe the spots off of the mirror
Don't leave my keys in the door
I Never put wet towels on the floor anymore cause
Dreams last for so long
Even after you're gone
I know that you love me
And soon you will see
You were meant for me
And I was meant for you.
I called my momma, she was out for a walk
Consoled a cup of coffee but it didn't wanna talk
So I picked up the paper, it was more bad news
My hearts being broken more people being used
Put on my coat in the pouring rain
I saw a movie it just wasn't the same
'Cause it was happy oh I was sad and
It made me miss you oh so bad 'cause
Dreams last for so long
Even after you're gone
I know that you love me
And soon you will see
You were meant for me
And I was meant for you.
I go 'bout my business, I'm doin fine
Besides what would I say if I had you on the line
Same old story not, much to say
Hearts are broken everyday.
I brush my teeth I put the cap back on
I know you hate it when I leave the light on
I pick up a cup. and then I Turn the sheets down.
And then I Take a deep breath and a good look around
Put on my pjs and hop into bed
I'm half alive but I feel mostly dead
I I try and tell myself it'll be all right
I just shouldn't think anymore tonight 'cause
Dreams last for so long
Even after you're gone
And I know that you love me
And soon I know you will see
You were meant for me
And I was meant for you

Yeah... You were meant for me and I was meant for you.

by, Jewel - You Were Meant For Me

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You told me
There's no need
To talk it out
Cause its too late
To proceed
And slowly
I took your words
And walked away

No looking back
I wont regret, no
I will find my way
I'm broken
But still I have to say

It's Alright, it's OK
I'm so much better without you
I won't be sorry
It's Alright, it's OK
So don't you bother what I do
No matter what you say
I wont return
Our bridge has burned down
I'm stronger now
It's Alright, it's OK
I'm so much better without you
I won't be sorry

You played me
Betrayed me
Your love was nothing but a game
Portrayed a role
You took control, I
I couldn't help but fall
So deep
But now I see things clear

It's Alright, it's OK
I'm so much better without you
I won't be sorry
It's Alright, it's OK
So don't you bother what I do
No matter what you say
I wont return
Our bridge has burned down
I'm stronger now
It's Alright, it's OK
I'm so much better without you
I won't be sorry

Don't waste your fiction tears on me
Just save them for someone in need
It's way too late
I'm closing the door

It's Alright, OK
I'm so much better without you
I won't be sorry
It's Alright, it's OK
So don't you bother what I do
No matter what you say
I wont return
Our bridge has burned down
I'm stronger now
It's Alright, it's OK
I'm so much better without you
I won't be sorry

It's Alright, it's OK
Alright, OK
Without you
No matter what you say
It's Alright, it's OK
Alright, OK
Without you
I won't be sorry

by, Ashley Tisdale - It's Alright It's OK

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[Chorus]
Wha- wha- what did she say
Mmmm whatcha say,
Mmm that you only meant well?
Well of course you did
Mmmm whatcha say,
Mmmm that it's all for the best?
Of course it is

[Verse 1]
I was so wrong for so long
Only tryin' to please myself (myself)
Girl, I was caught up in her lust
When I don't really want no one else
So, no I know I should of treated you better
But me and you were meant to last forever

[Hook]
So let me in (let me in) give me another chance (another chance)
To really be your man
Cause when the roof cave in and the truth came out
I just didn't know what to do
But when I become a star we'll be living so large
I'll do anything for you
So tell me girl

[Chorus]
Mmmm whatcha say,
Mmm that you only meant well?
Well of course you did
Mmmm whatcha say, (whatcha say)
Mmmm that it's all for the best?
Of course it is
Mmmm whatcha say,
Mmm that you only meant well?
Well of course you did
Mmmm whatcha say, (whatcha say)
Wha- wha- wha- wha- what did she say

[Verse 2]
How, could I live with myself
Knowing that I let our love go (love go)
And ooh, when I do with one chance
I just gotta let you know
I know what I did wasn't clever
But me and you we're meant to be together

[Hook]
So let me in (let me in) give me another chance (another chance)
To really be your man
Cause when the roof cave in and the truth came out
I just didn't know what to do
But when I become a star we'll be living so large
I'll do anything for you
So tell me girl

[Chorus]
Mmmm whatcha say,
Mmm that you only meant well?
Well of course you did
Mmmm whatcha say, (whatcha say, whatcha say)
Mmmm that it's all for the best?
Of course it is
Mmmm whatcha say,
Mmm that you only meant well?
Well of course you did
Mmmm whatcha say, (whatcha say, whatcha say)
Wha- wha- wha- wha- what did she say
[Bridge]
Girl, tell me whatcha said (said)
I don't want you to leave me
Though you caught me cheatin'
Tell me, tell me whatcha said (said)
I really need you in my life
Cuz things ain't right, girl
Tell me, tell me whatcha said (said)
I don't want you to leave me
Though you caught me cheatin'
Tell me, tell me whatcha said (said)
I really need you in my life
Cuz things ain't right

[Hook]
Cause when the roof cave in and the truth came out
I just didn't know what to do
But when I become a star we'll be living so large
I'll do anything for you
So baby watcha say!

[Chorus]
Mmmm whatcha say,
Mmm that you only meant well?
Well of course you did
Mmmm whatcha say, (whatcha say, whatcha say)
Mmmm that it's all for the best?
Of course it is
Mmmm whatcha say,
Mmm that you only meant well?
Well of course you did
Mmmm whatcha say, (whatcha say, whatcha say)
Wha- wha- wha- wha- what did she say


by, Jason DeRulo - Whatcha Say

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I can't go any further then this
I want you so badly, it's my biggest wish

Cool,
I spent my time just thinkin thinkin thinkin bout you
Every single day yes, I'm really missin' missin' you
And all those things we use to use to use to do
Hey girl, what's up, it use to used to be just me and you
I spent my time just thinkin thinkin thinkin bout you
Every single day, yes I'm really missin missin you
And all those things we use to use to use to do
Hey girl what's up, yo what's up, what's up, what's up

Can you meet me halfway, right at the boarderline
That's where I'm gonna wait, for you
I'll be lookin out, night n'day
Took my heart to the limit, and this is where I'll stay
I can't go any further then this
I want you so bad it's my only wish

Girl, I travel round the world and even sail the seven seas
Across the universe I go to other galaxies
Just tell me where to go, just tell me where you wanna meet
I navigate myself myself to take me where you be
Cause girl I want, I, I, I want you right now
I travel uptown (town) I travel downtown
Wanna have you around (round) like every single day
I love you alway... way
(I'll meet you halfway

Can you meet me half way)
Right at the boarderline
That's where I'm gonna wait, for you
I'll be lookin out, night n'day
Took my heart to the limit, and this is where I'll stay
I can't go any further then this
I want you so bad it's my only wish
I can't go any further then this
I want you so bad it's my only wish

Let's walk the bridge, to the other side
Just you and I (just you and I)
I will fly, fly the skies, for you and I (for you and I)
I will try, until I die, for you and I, for you and I, for for for you and I,
For for for you and I, for for you and I, for you and I

Can you meet me half way
Can you meet me half way
Can you meet me half way
Can you meet me half way

Meet me half way, right at the boarderline
That's where I'm gonna wait, for you
I'll be lookin out, night n'day
Took my heart to the limit, and this is where I'll stay
I can't go any further then this
I want you so bad it's my only wish
I can't go any further then this
I want you so bad it's my only wish

by, Black Eyed Peas - Meet Me Halfway

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Verse 1:
Someone once told me that you have to choose
What you win or lose
You can’t have everything
Don’t cha take chances
Might feel the pain
Don’t cha love in vain
Cause love won’t set you free
I could stand by the side
And watch this life pass me by
So unhappy
But safe as could be

Chorus:
So what if it hurts me?
So what if I break down?
So what if this world just throws me off the edge
My feet run out of ground
I gotta find my place
I wanna hear myself
Don’t care about all the pain in front of me
Cause I’m just trying to be happy, yeah
Just wanna be happy, yeah

Verse 2:
Holding on tightly
Just cant let it go
Just trying to play my role
Slowly disappear, ohh
All these days I feel like they’re the same
Just different faces, different names
Get me outta here
I can’t stand by your side, ohh no
Watch this life pass me by, pass me by

Chorus:
So what if it hurts me?
So what if I break down?
So what if this world just throws me off the edge
My feet run out of ground
I gotta find my place
I wanna hear myself
Don’t care about all the pain in front of me
Cause I’m just trying to be happy, ohh, happy, ohh


Bridge:
So and it’s just that I can’t see
The kind of stranger on this road
But don’t say victim
Don’t say anything

Chorus:
So what if it hurts me?
So what if I break down?
So what if this world just throws me off the edge
My feet run out of ground
I gotta find my place
I wanna hear myself
Don’t care about all the pain in front of me

Outro:
I just wanna be happy
Ohh, yeah, happy, ohh, happy
I just wanna be, ohh
I just wanna be happy
Ohh, happy

by, Leona Lewis - Happy





**saje pos..songs that i currently love to hear n read d lyrics :D means nothing to u bt sumthing to me ;)




2 done.[♥]

Tuesday, December 22, 2009

ma birthdate in Islamic Calendar. . .

Bulan kelahiran Islam anda adalah pada 6 Rejab 1406 Hijrah iaitu jatuh pada hari Isnin.

Maksud : Satu lagi bulan suci yang mengharamkan perlawanan atau peperangan dan salah satu bulan yang dihormati. Ia juga diken...ali sebagai Rajab al Fard. Fard bermaksud keseorangan: kerana tiga bulan suci yang lain berada jauh dan berturutan berbanding Rejab di tengah-tengah.

Sifat : Semasa kecil anda seorang yang degil dan nakal. Ibu bapanya patut mendidik anda dengan baik agar anda dapat menerapkan nilai-nilai yang baik. Ketika sudah dewasa, anda suka bersikap merendah diri dan bersikap tidak tahu menahu. Ini agak berlainan dari sikap anda semasa kecil. Walau bagaimanapun, hidup anda selamat dan aman. Insya'Allah


important to know ^^
eheh..
asyik taw birthdate in Gregorian jek..
huhu..




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when natural straight locks turns to curly locks. . .

hw would i look like when i've got maggie hair ?

Mdm kate, "cun!"

hahahaha...


sbnrnye..aku wat koje gile dgn meminta Mdm meng-curl-kn rmbut aku..
it had been a few days da kut.. :-?
dun really rmmber d exact date g permkn rmbut..wehehehe..
so my locks are not straight anymore..
kihkihkih...

camne rupe aku ?

Mdm kate cam anak patung =.="
aku x exaggerate k.seriously Mdm kate rupe aku cam anak patung.
haih~

mane pic ?
aku x amek pic laie dgn latest rmbut..
wahahaha..
sbb aku malas..


kenapa aku permkn rambut ?
saje :D
mulakn kehidupan baru..dgn Thn Baru brsama stail baru..yeah !
tggu formasi wholesome je skrng neh >:)
kihkihkih..
akn ku pancing pakwe Korea tuk djadikn bakal menantu Mdm..
wahahahahaha =))



**reti ke aku memasang joran tuk pegi memancing ? =.=" wa tarak taw.




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bile bulan mengambang penuh. . .

ahhhhhhhhhhhhh~
letih!

baru lepas mandi..
segar bugar..kehkehkeh :p

herm..
sepanjang prjlanan, aku x dpt nk lupekn memori bab "Mohd Toot Toot"
huh!
kenapa?
aku sndiri pn tataw nape hutak aku asyik trbyg² kisah lampau..

adakah mngkin sbb aku piyed?
huhu..hormon aku neh len mcm sket kalo tym piyed :D lalalala...
xleh pkai =.="


i'm more emotional when i'm having my period..
i'm more sensitive when i'm having my period..
i'm more bitchy when i'm having my period..
ngaa..oops! :">
hahahaha =))

tp tuh lew hakikat yg trjadi kpd aku emotionally + physically =.="

dalam hutak aku asyik timbul Qs yg aku taw jwpn die...
why?
when?
how?
what?
where?

tp yg plg byk soalan yg kuar started wif 'Why?'

d major question satu je anyway..

Why did he do this to me?

and of coz..d famous "IF" ...


why why why...
if if if...

too many why...
too many if...


d things we've shared...
for me, were real + genuine...
sumtyms, d memories are too vivid smpai aku leh trase he's near...
so near that i could catch his scent...his warmth...
too real...
smpai mnyesakkn dada aku...
craving for sum1 that i noe i couldnt have...
longing for sum1 that i noe i will nvr have...

am i sick?
couldnt get out from under his shadow =.="
mngkin gak aku leh salahkn menstruation aku :D ngehehe..
sbb tym aku piyed je aku gile camni =.="

knkdg aku leh humor myself dgn soalan yg bodoh..
example :

is he feeling d same way as i do?
longing for me...missing me...
bt d ache is too much bcoz he knows he can no longer reach to me...

pehtu..
aku tepis pemikiran tuh =.="
aku x rase yg die akn mmpunyai prasaan yg same spt ape yg aku rase skrng neh tuk die...
keinginan tuk mndptkn seseorg yg trlalu dirindui...
keinginan yg menyakitkn hati smpai menyesakkn dada...
sbb taw, keinginan tuh xkn dpt dpenuhi sbb x mngkin lagi seseorg yg diingini gegile tuh akan brada di dalam tangan kita...

sakit huh?

tuh lew yg aku rase...
tp...

cam aku taip td..
mngkin sbb aku piyed je aku gile skjap..
sbb sejak menjak neh..
pala aku x selari dgn keinginan hati aku =.="
hati aku mawkn die...
pala aku trying to b reasonable =.="
mngingatkn hati aku d heartaches he gave to me d last few moments b4 d BIGBANG =.="
d never ending war of d heart n d head =.="
hai~

aku kna kuar dr tmpt neh secepat mngkin ah camni =.="
cari ketenangan yg aku inginkn..
menenangkn kembali hati aku drpd d memories of him...
i will NEVER open his page anymore =.="
i will NEVER see his pics anymore =.="
sume tuh bahaya..
leh trigger feelings yg aku penat² simpan jejauh =.="

i HAVE GOT to get myself out of here!!!
erasing him from my mind...my heart..n my soul...
erasing him from everything i had memories of...
i've got to try..







**i found out that life is unbearably lonely without him walopn spnjg mase aku+die brsama pn, kami jrg call or even sms each other...mase tuh, aku taw he's mine...tp when it's over, i felt a punch of emptiness right in d middle of my chest that used to b filled wif him...i realised, he's no longer mine ;(




2 done.[♥]

Monday, December 21, 2009

kelmarin d Seremban . . .

ergh =.="
i hate manstruation period =.="
nk2 cam skrng neh..tgh heavyflow cam waterfall =.="
aiseyh..payah aku nk jnjln ke mane2..

kelmarin baru tiba dr kota Seremban, Negeri Sembilan :D
suda 1thn lebeh aku x balik sane...
sgguh rindu...
pegi jmpe ma beloved extensions of family on ma mother side...
d Scofields, Mrs Baker, Mrs Magbuana and d Pui family...

mlm kang, pegi anto Mrs Idris neh g LCCT...
early flight tomorrow morning to Manila, Phils...
haih~ =.="

byk plak koje =.="

pegi lawat Papa + Bby gak...
seeing ma aunty's crying n ma cousins' weeping...
trsentuh hati...
tataw per yg ade lam hati diorg..
tp bg aunty aku yg pnh dduk sebumbung dgn kitorg mase kecik2 dulu..
mesti rase syg + hormat tuh ade pd Abah aku..
huhu..
terima kasih Aunty Winang, Wei, Yuen, Hui and Ate Maribel...


huh~
x sabo nk jmpe diorg again :)
lupekn all d miseries here in Malaysia..
for ma family, they lost only 2..
for me, i lost 3...
d lost of ma loved ones were a huge blow to myself..as i lost d love of ma life too..
so ma miseries lagi terrible dr ma family..
and almost similar to d feelings ma mom had for ma dad to d ones i had for Mr. Toot..
d devastating feeling of losing ur life partner, ur lover, ur bestfriend...
that's hw i feel...


so i noe hw ma mom must have feel for ma dad...

well, seremban bwk byk memori :)
wif friends...and of course, d city where i met ma love...
i wont easily forget d memories as long as d city is there...
i even still rmmber d places we've been together there...
as hard as i tried to not look at those historical places of him+myself...
my heart skipped a beat when i catch a glimpse of those places...
rindu...sayang...cinta...geram...bengang...redha...
sume ade...mixed-feelings...

huh~
knkdg aku sndiri x caye betapa kuatnye prasaan yg ade lam hati neh tuk die...
aku x mngharapkn die kembali...
aku xde niat pn nk die kmbali...
aku pilih jln neh tuk mncintai die selamanya..walopon aku taw, aku akn end up to b alone without him by my side..
aku taw d consequences of taking this road of solitude...
aku pilih tuk terus mncintai walopon x memiliki die...eventhough he's not breathing any longer..i will continue on loving him til i breathe ma last air...

tuh la psal aku kate =.="
payah tuk d next guy yg mawkn hati aku =.="
walopon hati aku suda kmbali..tp cinta yg ada lam hati aku neh, masih atas nama die...
d guy after him must work extra, EXTRA hard tuk memenangi hati aku...
n maybe i wont b as d same person i was at d 1st tym i have fallen in love...
aku xkn jd d same person anymore...
it'll b EXTRA hard for d next guy to make me fall in love wif him on ma own accord :)
huhuhu..
sounds cruel huh ?
tp it takes time..
everything requires time...
kalo die dpt mnunjukkn kpd aku keikhlasan die...ketulusan hati die tuk mncintai aku..
maybe, i'll consider..
sbb to open ma heart again is dangerous to me...
coz for me, falling in love is a dangerous game to play...
i've lost to another woman, once...i wont lose for d second time around...huhu


tp tuh!
IF!! aku decide to open up ma heart again :D hehehe...
so sblm tuh trjadi...aku akn enjoy jadi single mingle pringles \:d/
kehkehkeh...
easy life...no strings attached..no responsibilities..no one to tie me down..
i'm a free bird !

**it's hard to love again when d heart is closed...bt it's not impossible ;) for me, it'll take up years to open ma heart again to any man :) buhsan ah layan manusia brgelar lelaki neh...mngabehkn maso yo..lalalala~




4 done.[♥]

Tuesday, December 15, 2009

from a brokenhearted me to d-once-upon-a-tym love of ma life, YOU. . .

knape aku xmo tgk bnde yg ade direct memories of him?
sbb akn mmbuatkn hati aku kacau...
cam air yg tenang digggu oleh sehelai daun...

aku ingt hati aku da ckp kuat...
tp baru je bbrape minit td aku g pge die...
tgk muke die...
Ya Allah~
i nvr thought ma heart could stir by d sight of him...
betapa kuatnye getaran yg kecik tuh ddlm hati aku...

Ya Allah~!!
jauhkn la perasaan ni... :(
cukup la aku mnderita sbb adekn prasaan ini...
sptmane die pnh kate kt aku...
aku+die xleh brsama...
kata2 tuh, trpahat dlm hati aku...dlm jiwa aku...

aku xmo timbulkn prasaan tuh skrng smpai bebile...
walo sekuat mane pn prasaan tuh merempuh pintu hati aku...aku xmo ia masok kembali ke dlm hati aku...
mmbuatkn aku gila...mmbuatkn aku ilang prtimbangan...
aku nk pergi sejauh mane aku mmpu...
aku nk delete die dr frenlist aku...tp aku malas..
sbb nmpk sgt aku nk jarakkn diri drpd die...
pehtu dgn selambe je die leh add aku balik lepas die memujuk hati aku...
aku benci...
aku benci die sbb die mmpu mmbuatkn aku lemah skjap je...
tp kalo aku tade prasaan tuk die..spttnye, aku xde rase benci pn kt die...or any feelings at all..
so, tade benci kalo tade cinta..
huhu..
memandai je =.="

eeeeeeeeeeee~~!!
aku x ske!!!
kenapa la gatal sgguh aku g tgk pge die =.="
pdn muke!
kan da timbul balik...
waaaaaaaa~!!

bile la aku xkn ade lagi rase getaran tuh ddlm hati aku bile nmpk die..?
bile la aku xkn ade rase vibrations tuh kt lam jiwa aku sebaik aku nmpk die ?
isk isk isk !!!!

aku kna ade pakwe ke tuk lupekn die ?
masalahnye..i couldnt b bothered wif dat =.="
serious kemalasan melampau =.="
bnde2 neh hny mngabeskn masa aku je =.="

eee =.="

weh Encik Mohd toot toot...!!!!
brmbos ah dr hati aku ~x( !!!!!
g idop bebaik dgn manusia2 tuh ~x(
jgn gggu hati aku lagi da ~x(
jgn gggu hutak aku lagi da ~x(
jgn buat idop aku brcelaru lagi da ~x( :((

tolong ah b... :-<
pegi la idop bebaik dgn mereka yg tlh ddtgkn tuk kamo...
pegi la jejauh dr hati org...jiwa org...minda org...
jgn amek peduli da dgn kisah idop org...
both of us, like u said - x bleh brsama...
akn org simpan kate2 tuh smpai mati pn...

live peacefully dgn kuarge kamo...smpai ke nafas trakhir kamo..
begitu juge dgn org...

ye, ur my 1st love...i wont deny that forever...
bt it's over nw...u said it..org pn terima..walopon berat...
u betrayed my trust...when all i give u is my love+loyalty...
u betrayed me by being wif another person when im not around...
hw can that be when im also alone here without u syg :(
nw u have to pay that price...
having a love from every woman in d world bt all u can feel is emptiness...
kekosongan dlm jiwa...ketidaktenteraman dlm hati...rase resah gelisah ddlm idop spnjg masa...
sume tuh sbb kamo mngkhianati cinta org...
bkn org menyumpah tp itu yg kamo rase skrng neh pn kn syg ? :(
org x pnh doakn pape selain drpd kesejahteraan + ktnteraman idop kamo shgga nafas kamo yg trakhir...
org doakn kamo dsygi oleh setiap manusia yg ade hubungkait dgn kamo...x kire kuarge ataupn kwn2 kamo...

im sorry if wat i typed here might b irritating, heartbreaking to u..
bt ini la realiti kn?
u said that we have to take different paths nw...
so i tke mine, u already tke urs...
we loved each other..once..and i thnk u for that experience :)
i poured my heart+soul to u...
tataw la if u feel d same way for me :)
u noe, i dun even noe wat's true..wat's fake anymore...
ur my only one...my only one ayang...forever..
it's true..
i dunno if i could love again...
nw it's d tym for me to say to u, kalo ade jodoh..kite akn brjmpe ;)
maybe as a fren again ? maybe as a lover again ?
ontah ;p
bt one thing for sure..i hate sharing my lover..tuh je yg org leh kate :D
i dun share ma man wif any bitches ;)
huhuhu..so here is why i should let u go finally..
coz u dun want me to b d only one for u as i want u to b d only one for me :)
gud luck in everything ;) n pray for mine as well huh? :D
lastly,

saya mmg cintakn awk...sentiasa...


tp neh la d last tym u'll c me typing those words to u...
u wont hear it in ur ear, wif ma voice telling u d words...
u wont read those words anymore after dis...
no more...
huh! lega lps taip everything...huhuhu


**bile aku cintakn seseorg, aku cinta dgn sejujurnya...aku cinta dgn sepenuh keikhlasan aku...aku x pndg sesape pn melainkn DIA...is it so hard to find sum1 that only loves d same way as i love a person ?




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kelmarin. . .

kelmarin was a touching day for most of us :)
received a call from one of d staff keje kt 41, saying that "it's here.."

memasing x sabo nk tgk motor yg abah + bby tunggang on dat day...
lps settle things..
memasing g tgk die...
trase cam kecik plak die comparing to d tym when it first came into our lives :)
rase sayang + rindu yg meluap...

lepas amek pics bbyk dgn die..
kitorg pn bransur balik...give small talks to d bike as if it's human :)
saying to it such as 'be good to ur next owner'...'dun b notty'..funny huh?
tp tuh la d words yg kuar dr mulut aku n d rest of d family...

on d way back to kerteh..
almost kt jmbtan kemaman, ma mom broke down in tears...
aku pn maw nanes gak sbnrnye tp dsbbkn tamo nanes dpn kuarge, aku thnkn je..
seeing ma mom crying behind d wheels...
i inhaled a lot of air, filled it in my lungs...
and exhaled it slowly...
i did that to prevent myself from crying too :)
it's too much to bear..
bt i managed to stop d tears from falling...



sebak tp happy to see it again for d last tym..
n able to ride on top of it for d 1st n last...
we'll miss it terribly...

good luck in wherever it may go :)


**life nvr stop for anyone...so should we :) kan?




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Friday, December 11, 2009

is life complicated for most of us ?

why do we humans like to complicate things when it is so simple =.="


ade org kate hidup diorg complicated..
alah! bknnye die adopted by their parents or sumthing..
or ade secrets of d family yg so dark smpai sgguh menakutkn kalo di-revealkn..
huh~! =.="

d only thing yg making ppl feel they're living a complicated life is wat their using their heart+mind for =.="
care org mnggunekn specialty yg Allah bg neh brbeza²...
so jgn bg alasan yg life diorg complicated =.="
that's totally BULLSHIT!
life's simple...bt d 'actors' that live their lives make it complicated..
ingat tuh!
huh...


**aku paling benci manusia yg ske salahkn jln ceta yg diorg pilih..sape suwoh terjun masok ke dlm situation tuh in d first place if sgguh BENCI dgn keadaan yg dhadapi? bodoh!




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dat morning. . .

ngaa..
hola ! baru selesai satu drama :D my girl ;p
kehkehkeh...
2ari lepas, subuh baru tido nk tgk episod tuh smpai abes =))
adeyh lew =.="


it's nice sumtimes to imagine to b d heroin of d drama 8->
sapo yg xmo good-looking hunks being ur love-interest kn?
ngehehehe :">

well..berangan skjap wont hurt anybody kn? :p

hah~ 8->
bile turn aku nk dpt good-looking hunk wif a BIG heart, BIG pocket n BIG concience?
lalalala...

tp bile pkkn d pain...
urgh! tamo ah =.="
better solo mellow camni drpd being hurt by dumb male-homosapiens =.="
betul?

kehkehkeh..
saket pewut ah =.="
so! maw mandi :D
pegi kuantan satgi \:d/
lalalala...


**tade bnde nk post =.=" menunggu bini chechak wa nyer post..lambat laie upenyer T_T jd sy post dulu..kehkeh...waiting patiently for chechak trchenta♥




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Sunday, December 06, 2009

faiz !

yeh!
faiz ade!

windunye kt faiz ♥

nnti lame baru leh tgk die :(
hopefully die+family die sehat² spnjg ketiadaan kitorg :(
isk!

windu windu...

heheh!
sekian trime kasih :p




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Thursday, December 03, 2009

things to do !

heheh..

wat do i want to do next?


lists :

1.bungee jumping?
why : want to feel d adrenaline rush when facing d possibilities of death :) tragic huh? kihkihkih..

2.sky-diving?
why : want to face my nightmares :)

3.wearing a mini skirt?
why : tgk pmpn + she-male cam lawa je pkai :))=)) tp aku pkai kt umah ah :"> wakakakaka...

4.kiss d women that i love on d lips?
why : saje nk bg gabra org :-" lagipn, nk taw per prasaan katy perry..adakah samo bahwe cium pmpn kt bibir neh besh? kahkahkah..gile aku neh =.="

5.randomly flirting wif d hottest men?
why : saje nk taw per prasaan pmpn yg prasan mereka hot + gay² yg prasaan cun mnggoda lelaki yg diorg kate "manly + macho" =.=" =))

6.ngorat escon?
why : ontah..saje je nk taw..tp kompem aku yg amek baldi sbb trlalu corny :-& ewww~!!

7.ngorat umair mokri?
why : ontah..saje nk taw gak =.=" cam besh je nk ngorat die :-? tp kompem aku lari sbb trlampau byk SG :(( waaaaaaaaaaa~~!!! gile raksasa tuh :(( lariiiiiiii~!!

8.kawen lari dgn Gong Yoo?
why : sbb tade reason not to elope dgn die :"> ahaks..gatai!

9.seduce Hiro Mizushima?
why : gile hensem! ahh..cair cair~ :x =)) tp sian beliau..tggu die divorce dulu 8-> wahahahaha >:)

10.b a World-class driver?
why : sbb abah aku drebar yg plg terer lam idop aku..tade org len sehebat die..so, conclusion! aku pn nk jadi drebar cam die :x :D

11.kapel ngn Giselle Bundchen?
why : gile seksi+cun! sapo tamo die angkat kaki..blah dr muke aku! hahahaha =))

12.nk lari dgn cheetah?
why : sbb aku nk rase betapa free nye mereka rase tuk brlari sepantas tuh..dan sebebas tuh :)

13.nk makeout dgn Megan Fox?
why : nape =.=" xleh? hahahahaha =))

14.nk kawen + branak for Vic Zhou?
why : sbb aku gilekn die..okeh x alasan tuh? hahahaha =))

15.nk menyanyi brsama Justin Timberlake?
why : sbb aku nk berada disamping lelaki pujaan hatiku ♥

16.nk brmain mata dgn Jesse McCartney?
why : why not =.=" he's so DAMN cute! *drool..*

17.nk main ONEonONE dgn Mohd Ikhmal Hisham b. Idris?
why : sbb da jnji :) lepas buat one-sided ring kt area umah, lwn ONEonONE dgn die..miss u b :*

18.nk main chess dgn abah smpai abah nanes kalah?
why : sbb tuh azam aku :) dr kecik smpai ke beso, aku ALMOST!! kalahkn abah aku :p

19.nk mekap² + pkai baju lady tuk impress mama?
why : sbb die dying! nk tengok aku jd wanita melayu terakhir =.=" kahkahkah =))

20.nk tgk farah+fiffy+angah nikah?
why : sbb tym tuh je aku leh rase tenang tuk mnjalani kehidupan yg aku maw dgn happynya..tanpa rasa brsalah..tanpa rasa trikat...aku da mnjlnkn tggjwb aku sbg seorg kakak kpd adik² aku yg tggl..leh ah honeymoon dgn mdm ;) ekekeke..



**bile nk trmakbul 8-> sume tuh mepek..tp aku pasti ade yg leh dmakbulkn satu ari nnti ;)




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diction..

aku jmpe laman web besh tuk translate BI - BM..
huhuhu

LamanMini




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loyal ? menatang apo lah =.="

ngahaha...
well..
agak lama da er aku x wat blog :-?

sbb apo u may ask?












wa malas :D eheh !


lgpn aku x brape sehat..tuh psal aku x wat blog..
or doing watever yg ade kaitan ngn internet + pc :D
tym ujan yg besh neh..
aku byk mnghabiskn mase aku tgk cd :D huhuhu..
sgguh besh !
pehtu brimaginasi bile la aku akn jmpe hero bdn sasa+tinggi+kacak lagi baik hati neh kt lam drama idop aku 8->
huhuhu..
too much to ask?
maybe..
anyways ! tuh hanyalah impian :">
kalo dpt..ALHAMDULILLAH !!!
mak aku adalah org plg bahgia kalo aku dpt lelaki yg memenuhi khendak kuarge..ngeh!
huh~
tp er...







masalahnye er...


















aku da buhsan =.="
being cheated...being lied to...being betrayed...
aku da buhsan..
jalan citer lebeh kureng je =.="
lgpn..
prasaan yg aku ade sblm neh..buatkn aku rase cam aku neh da 100thn =.="
sgguh letih !
bknnye aku ade BANYAK~~~ kisah cinta...
sesungguhnye, aku amat miskin dlm love neh :D

namunpn begitu..
kisah cinta yg hanya satu neh..
tlh mmberikn aku segala yg aku perlu taw ttg misteri cinta...
aku! yg x pnh mngharapkn pape luck langsung lam brcinta..
akhirnye dpt merasa diri ini dicinta..adakah mamat tuh ikhlas ke tidak, blakang citer..
yg penting kt sini..aku da pnh merasa perit jerih brcinta..kebahagiaan brcinta..
having butterflies in d stomach whenever i see his id num at ma hp...
having goosebumps juz by hearing his voice...
trase bgai diri ini walking on air...
dunia aku mase tuh, sumenye sweet+lovely+nice...
at that tym, i thought all this could nvr end..i HOPED for it to not stop forever...
bt i noe, deep down inside...
everything will eventually end :)

so..
it ends! :)

aku rase er org yg tgh cintan-cintun neh..sumenye bodoh²..
heh! aku pn x trkecuali..
dsbbkn cinta+extra hormon yg dkuarkn oleh hutak [bioligically!]
mmbuatkn aku temporarily insane for quite some time..

tp skrng..
cam org jepn kate.. "mo iyo!"
meaning, enough!

enough is enough...
i dun want to b d fool anymore...
i dun want to b d one who waits anymore...
i dun want to b d one to b broken in d end anymore...
i dun want to have all those heart-wrenching feelings that caused me to suffocate anymore!
yamette!!
cukup suda...


i dun need to hold on to sum1 who betrays me :)
i dun need to hold on to d feelings that had made me insane...
i dun need to...not anymore :)

those things...exhausts me...tires me...weighs me down...


yea!
human's life is short...
bt i dun have d time to mope around for d one who doesnt even have d dignity to face love's test :)
all he wants is fun..
i gave him fun :) paid d price dearly..
extra baggages of hurt!
huhu..
i think it's enough already..

he's happy..
i'm happy..finally!

i juz hope our polar differences will cast us away from each other strongly!
so that, he + i will nvr have d chance to interfere anymore...
bg aku, aku xkn buat anything to b in his life again..
aku da letih..so tade reason tuk aku mngggu ketenteraman hidup sesape..
i'm a free person akhirnya!
dia?
ske ati dia la.. :)
i dun own him...i'm not even his mother :))

i juz prayed..
that he will b taken care of very well :)
and he will have d happiness he's searching for in his entire life...

aku da deny bahwesenye..
die da lepaskn tgn aku sejak aku kehilangan org² yg aku plg treasure lam idop aku...
aku taw..
tp baru skrng aku berani mngiyakn d fact that i lost him already...
aku dgn muke x malunye...merayu²...
mesti suke kn die :))
tgk pmpn trgile²kn die..
no!
not anymore...
buatpe aku hold on...to d person who let go of my hand in d first place?
buatpe aku hold on...to d person who doesnt even have faith in my love in d first place?
buatpe aku hold on...to d person who betrays me by having an affair wif another woman?

kalo die ade common sense ah kn...
die da taw die ade kekunun..org yg die cinta...he is not free to b wif anyone else..
x kesah ar per alasan die..tp he is not free to have that privilege like a single+available man...
betul?

kenapa aku leh tp die xleh?
kenapa hold on to me when he knows it wouldnt work out in d end anyway?
bg aku..
die selfish :)
sume pmpn die nak...dgn alasan, needs to feel loved n give love..
bullshit ah! =.="

die ingt pmpn neh kucing ke ape kna bg kasih sayang dan sume tuh.. =.="
if i can b loyal..y cant he?

yes i do flirt..tp i dun do more than that..
i have boundaries...
aku akn flirt manusia yg aku taw xkn ade respon kt aku nyer :))
tp kalo ade genjatan elektrik slps aku flirt dgn manusia tuh, selalunye aku akn tgglkn die..
sbb ape?
bahaya...
i dun flirt wif sum1 who is interested wif me :)
bodo?
tp tuh la hakikatnye :D
i dun flirt wif anyone who is interested or even ade d slightest development of feelings towards me :D
aku xkn flirt nye dgn manusia jenis tuh...!


tp die?
pergh! << neh je aku leh taip =.=" bygkn ah betapa dahsyatnye kalo aku terangkn laie =.=" huhu

is it hard to b loyal?

huhu..
tp xpe ah kn..
aku da lupekn sumenye...
aku da buangkn lam treasure chest..solex bebaik..
dan karamkn ia ke lautan yg paling dalam.. :)


aku da lepaskn sume harapan + kepercayaan yg aku ade pd cinta..
aku da lepaskn sume impian pd cinta...
i dun want to have it anymore..
it's tiring..n so disappointing :)

jadi!
aku xkn brcinta laie da.. =.="
sbb apo?
aku da malas...
noktah.











mnde aku mmbebel?
aku pn tataw..juz nk lepaskn per yg aku rase lam hati..
sbb aku da penat simpan :)
ngeh!


**akhirnye..lawa blog aku..kahkahkah..!




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