i dreamt of u today.

hermm...

i thought i would nvr have any dream abt him no more.
then here i was, woke up to a dream that i wished i could woke up sooner.

d dream was painful to me. i kept on hoping i could just wake up frm it.
d dream started blurry...then somebody told me that something had happen to him.it made me instantly very sad.
i saw mama's face trying to cheer me up, my sisters too.
my heart was breaking rapidly...aching too much...
for d first tym i want to wake up from a dream. a dream where he was in it.
then there was a lady. too hazy for me to recognise bt i think i now who she was.
she was trying to hurt me with painful things that could make my heart ache even more by having uploading pics + things between her + him.
all i wanna do was creep up somewhere and juz cry.
she said, he doesn't have any feelings for me anymore and love only her.
i know it would be strange for me to feel hurt by that remark since i am no longer important like i was before bt still, it hurts.

sigh~
i thought i wouldn't have any link after i decided to let go.
i thought that link was gone slowly after i decided to forgive him + pray for his happiness with his family.
serious. aku da redha dgn segalanya.
aku siap halalkn segala bnde yg aku da bg kt die for d 3yrs he's been mine.

:-<

that stupid jerk =.="
even in dreams also want to make me hurt ka?
sheeshhh.
bt i guess, i couldnt stop feeling the way that i do.
it has been 6yrs and 2 mths already since i say - i do.
and i still is loving him.
it is difficult to shake it off.

tp xpela.
die da ade org yg jage.
watpe aku nk sebok2 tol?
walaucamne pn, aku still doakn yg baik2 tuk die.
at last, aku doakn die bahagia dgn life die.

he was my knight in shining armor...my prince...the king of my heart.
eventhough we are not together visibly, i guess it is ok to say that we're still connected somewhat by an invisible thread.

kuat gak =.="
walopn skrng neh, die buat dekk je dgn aku =.=" ceh~!
aku majok xmo pujuk =.="
sedih! :(
tp, aku harap yg die masih sygkn aku :(
aku harap yg die masih cintakn aku :(
aku harap yg die masih mahukn aku :(
sbb aku masih syg, cinta + mahukn die.
uhuk~


to dak kecik yg bongok,
ayg, org rindu ayg :(
ayg jahat :(
x pujuk ! [-(
hoohoo~
ayg jage diri leklok. solat jage. mkn jage. xmo stress2.
once in a while, msg la org ngok ! >:p
geram aku =.="
ishhhh~
luv u so much, b :*

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written from the heart

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