fine.

herm.
da masok disember.
alhamdulillah.
da masok thn bru gak utk org² muslim :)
Salam Maal Hijrah [i noe, a bit late bt better late than never kn ? ;p]

okeh.
aku tgh mnjage api kemarahan yg tgh mmbuak ddlm dada aku neh =.="
tetibe jek trbuke hati aku nk tgk something, find out abt something.
and yeah, i did. =.="

pergh!
terbako nye hati.
astaghfirullahal'azim. a'uzubillahiminashaitonnirajim~
sabo weh sabo.

dalam hutak aku, aku da amek machinegun tembak sepuas² nye =.="
bengang. geram. sakit hati.
sume ah =.="

didn't we say it clearly enough ?
betapa hancurnye hati aku bile mngetahui something that i really dun wanna know.
*hembus nafas, amek nafas sedalam² nye. . .hembusssss*
die x taw ke betape Mdm aku teringin melihat die?
die x taw ke betape tingginye harapan Mdm aku trhadap die?
die x taw ke betape Mdm aku rindukn die?
and itu baru Mdm aku.
aku da bgtau sedaya upaya aku jgn meletakkn apa² harapan kat die.
sbb aku taw how it feels to b disappointed by that person.

i am frustrated.
i am sad.
i am heartbroken.

sigh~

Mdm kate, if d 3rd time die x dpt brjmpe juge dgn die...
she didn't say anything after that.
tp aku cube menenangkn hati mama aku tuh dgn mmberitahunya yg mngkin antara mama dgn die blom brjodoh lagi tuk brjmpe.
she seemed to calm down with what i said and smiled.

aduhhhh!
benci ah bile this things happen.
hati aku neh cam dicucuk², disiat²...
Ya Allah, tenangknlah hati aku neh.


hmph.
xpe.
aku tgkkn saje.
i've done things that i could.
it seems to me that i just have to let it go.
bersabar lagilah yg perlu aku lakukn.
hadoih~

xpe.
i dun wanna say anything anymore or do anything anymore.
aku buat xtaw je ah =.="
sbb aku da malas.
hati aku da sakit gile da neh.
Mdm maybe bleh overlooked abt this bt to me, it hurts a lot.

aku nk merajok =.="
lalalala~
bwk hati ku yg lara sejauhnye dr manusia yg telah mnyakiti hati ku ini :-<
ouh sedihnya.
memujuk hati ku yg sedih ini.
menyejukkn hati ku yg kepanasan ini.

ouh bengangnye =.="

fine.
if that is all he can do. then i won't do anything to give him headaches.
i'll juz disappear =.="
that's d best thing.
malas.

humph.
aman hidup aku =.="



ish geram gerammmm!



fine!
if that's hw u want to play, i'll play along as well =.="
huhu.
i'll make u hurt + damn unhappy as well as i am hurt right nw =.="
so, let's start.

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written from the heart

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