oi. where are you?

huh~
everybody is asleep already.
me ?
still waiting for a certain someone to miraculously appear =.="

ma eyes are heavy already bt i'm still hoping that i'll get a chance to say things to that certain somebody.

sigh~


i know what i'm getting myself into anyway.
bt sometimes, it's too much for me to bear.
i need to be extra patient, extra tolerant and extra forgiving.
waiting someone sucks, u know =.="
i hate waiting bt hey! i've been waiting for this single human being for many years already.
i dunno when i've started waiting for that person anyway. =.="
i wasnt aware of me doing it.
it came natural to me to be waiting for this person eventhough i noe that person won't come anyway.
yeah, it'll break ma heart into pieces bt i am willing to wait for this stupid person =.="

i guess, it's harmless to say that this act is an act of love + compassion towards that person.

i realised i have to be very patient with this person far more than it requires me to do so in the past.
i realised i have to be very tolerant with this person far more than i had to before.
eventhough i dun like to admit it bt things have changed since that day.
drastically even.
towards a future that i can never could picture it in ma head.

ma feelings for this certain person is absolute bt i have my limits.
dun test me.
as easily as i can love someone sincerely, d same applies when i need to be cruel to someone too.
though not so much, bt my actions sometyms hurt more inside than the outside.
huhu.

zalim er?


so pls sayang, dun test me so much.
ma patience can go so high bt it can come down as easily as well.
u noe i tend to destroy myself a lot with lots of IFs in ma head alone =.="
so, dun make me do something that'll make me be a bit cruel to u.



hurry back.







little notes : in Johor rite nw. saw too many yellow cars today =.=" gave me a lot of heartaches + cursing to a certain somebody =.=" hadoiiii la~

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written from the heart

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